She moved toward him, then cupped his face. “What’s wrong?”
This was all new to him, too. Dhiro hadn’t anticipated being so greatly affected by her closeness. After this many weeks, he should feel more at ease with her presence.
“It is nothing you need to worry about.” He pressed his lips against hers.
There was still no arousal coming from her, but he sensed her concern. Still, his cock hardened at the thought of what he wanted, especially what he wanted to do to her.
Ella broke the kiss and rested her forehead against his chest.
He heard her gasp as she tilted her head back to look at him.
“You’re hard.”
He frowned. “What do you mean?”
Ella surprised him further by touching his cock, and he had no choice but to sink his teeth into his lip to contain his pleasured moans.
It felt so good.
“Is this what you want?” she asked.
He grabbed her wrist, and it took every ounce of willpower to push her away from him. He was aroused. So desperate for her to touch him.
“I can attend to you.”
She put both of her hands on his chest. “Stop. You don’t think I’ve noticed the small changes in you? Are you bored of me, Dhiro?”
“No. Most certainly not.”
“Then why are you trying to stop me from touching you? Why do you want me to stop? You’re hard. I can feel you.” She pressed her body against him. “You don’t think I can?”
“I know you can feel me, but this isn’t right.”
“What isn’t?”
“I’m here to serve you. I’m here to make your life better and easier.”
She wrapped her palm around his aching dick. The touch alone created an intense reaction. Every muscle in his body seemed to tense at once.
Dhiro loved her touch and didn’t want it to stop, but he knew this wasn’t appropriate. Their mating wasn’t about his pleasure. He’d taken her from her home and brought her to Trenu Zel, so the least he could do was devote his time to her, giving her what she wanted.
He stroked his fingers down her cheek, going to her neck, then toward her tits, but Ella stepped back.
“No. You’re going to tell me what you want. You’re not touching me until you do.”
Dhiro frowned. “Ella, please.”
“I know you want something. You’ve given me so much.”
“And I’m going to give you even more.”
She shook her head. “No, you’re going to tell me what you want.”
“I cannot.”
“Why?”
“I’m designed to pleasure you. That’s all I desire.”
“No. I refuse to have you pleasure me, Dhiro. Not until I know what you crave.” She sighed.
“Don’t you love what I do to your body?”
“You know I do. You know I love it. I love everything you do, but … I know a relationship doesn’t work like this. It doesn’t just take. There has to be both sides.” She licked her lips, and once again, an ache shot right through his body, going directly to his balls.
Ella’s upset filled the room. He couldn’t have that.
“What I want … is not normal,” he said.
She tilted her head to the side. “What do you mean?”
He ran fingers through his hair. “Our seed is for fertility. It is meant to produce more children. Our pleasure comes second. It always has.”
“Just tell me.”
He shook his head.
“Dhiro, I will never allow you to touch me again if you don’t tell me what you desire.”
The threat felt real, and Dhiro couldn’t stand not touching her again. There was no way he’d be able to survive that kind of loneliness.
“I … I want to feel your mouth wrapped around my cock. You have such beautiful hair. I’d like to hold it as I feed my dick into your mouth. I have watched you eat, the way your eyes close, and your mouth salivates with pleasure. I’d like to fill your mouth with my seed and watch you swallow every drop.”
There. His shame was out. A dread he’d never known weighed heavily on him.
Ella chuckled.
As reactions went, this was a new one, and he jerked his head up, frowning at her. “You’re mocking me?”
“No. I’m not mocking you. I just…” She stepped toward him, and he gasped as she sank to her knees. “Your desires are very human.”
“I am not human.”
“But you want what you want. I’ve never done this before. But I’ve seen it done, on film.” She must have seen his displeasure. “Porn movies. On our human world, men and women come together, having sex, mating for the sake of the camera. There are some that also have blowjobs, a woman sucking a man’s cock. Or you could have man on man, or woman on woman. There are a lot of combinations.”
“You’re enjoying this?”
“What? Having you completely clueless while I fill in the blanks? Yep, not going to deny it. I think this is awesome.”
He gasped as she went to the waistband of his pants, releasing the catches. Dhiro was tempted to stop her. His selfish desires were his own. Not ones to be shared.