Loving Jacob (Breathless 5)

“She snuck into our home when the power was out. I was half asleep and disoriented.”

“Oh yeah. When was this magical night that you caught dementia and fucked the shit out of Justine?”

“That’s not fair, Destiny. It was the night the power went out in the entire city, and you were out with Tasha and I couldn’t get a hold of you. I had been worried sick about you being out in the weather, but I talked myself into resting, telling myself that you were with Tasha so you would be fine. I was so happy when I sat up on the lounger after that nap and saw you walk into the room wearing your red negligee.”

“It wasn’t me, Jacob! You let her do this to us, again.”

“She wore your gown to disguise herself. She wore your perfume. She wouldn’t let me touch her, so I thought you were trying something different.”

He stepped close to me and I slapped him with all the dragon-fire burning through my spirit. “She’s a white woman Jacob and I’m black. That shit sounds ridiculous! Don’t you dare treat me like I’m an idiot.”

“Destiny, it’s the truth. When I went to flip the switch to see if the light was working, you, well she, halted me by placing a finger on my lip. It was pitch black in there. I couldn’t see my hand in front of my face. And then…then we made love in the pitch-dark room. I thought she was you, baby. She didn’t say anything…she just…the bitch tricked me!”

I slinked against the wall, barely able to think or feel, much less look at him.

He wrapped his arms around me to prop me up.

I wriggled to get away.

He would not let me break free.

“You can’t hold me like this forever, Jacob. At some point, I will get free and I am going to leave you. I will never forgive you for sleeping with her or keeping this secret, knowing what she has done to me. And you just went through with our wedding like nothing ever happened. Now, I have guards all around me because she thinks that you are hers.”

“Baby, I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want to see this pain-filled look in your eyes that you have now. Seeing it not only breaks you, but it breaks me, and we are stronger than that.”

“You’re damned right, it breaks us. How could you not know her body from mine?” I asked, pressing the point of him not appreciating me as intimately as I thought he did. It made me feel cheap, like I came a dime a dozen, and the feeling was nauseating.

“Ugh!” Jacob roared his outrage.

The elevator doors popped open to the floor he rented out for us. I stormed out into the hallway and he opened the door to the penthouse. His hand came crushing down on the wall.

“I’m livid for not knowing how to answer your question. I don’t know how she pulled it off, but I felt a bit woozy from my nap. I don’t know if I thought she was you because I was half asleep and it was so dark. She’s your height and weight, and the whole time I thought it was you. God knows that’s the truth. Not a day has gone back that I haven’t wished I could take it back.”

“But you can’t take it back, can you Jacob? You slept with the very woman who has spent the last year trying to kill me. Congratulations.” I pushed his chest. “I can’t do this, right now.” I ran to the bathroom, so he wouldn’t see my tears fall.

Jacob blocked me from closing myself in the bathroom. “Don’t lock me out. Please darling, don’t block me out.”

“I don’t have anything further to say, Jacob. Everything that has been done is done, on both of our accounts. Maybe this just wasn’t meant to be.”

“Destiny, don’t do this,” Jacob said.

“I need to use the bathroom in private. Can I do that, please?”

He stepped away, allowing me to close the door.

Thankful that he allowed me the time to wallow in my pain alone, I began to whimper.

“Baby, please, let me in,” Jacob pled.

Whimpers turned into weeping cries as I turned on the water in the sink to splash my face. “I can’t believe this is happening!” I said and cried some more. “Why Jacob, why?” I wailed, as the bathroom door came crashing open.

And Jacob was all over me. He forcibly turned me to face him and his lips crashed into mine. At first, I resisted him with ardent fervor, pushing him with all the strength in my body. I didn’t want him near me.

“Get away from me,” never met the sound barrier with coherence as he muzzled my demands with his overbearing lips.

“No…never. I’m never letting you go. I love you.”

"I hate you! I’m pregnant with your child,” I murmured against his lips that halted.