“You’re going to do what your father did,” Marco says. “You’re going to take yourself off the board.”
“Not precisely,” she says. “I suppose I was always more my mother’s daughter.”
“No,” Marco says. “You cannot mean that.”
“It’s the only way to stop the game.”
“Then we’ll continue playing.”
“I can’t,” she says. “I can’t keep holding on. Every night it becomes more difficult. And I … I have to let you win.”
“I don’t want to win,” Marco says. “I want you. Truly, Celia, do you not understand that?”
Celia says nothing, but tears begin to roll down her cheeks. She does not wipe them away.
“How can you think that I don’t love you?” Marco asks. “Celia, you are everything to me. I don’t know who is trying to convince you o
therwise, but you must believe me, please.”
She only looks at him with tear-soaked eyes, the first time she has held his gaze steadily.
“This is when I knew I loved you,” he says.
They stand on opposite sides of a small, round room painted a rich blue and dotted with stars, on a ledge around a pool of jewel-toned cushions. A shimmering chandelier hangs above them.
“I was enchanted from the moment I first saw you,” Marco says, “but this is when I knew.”
The room around them changes again, expanding into an empty ballroom. Moonlight filters in through the windows.
“This is when I knew,” Celia says, her voice a whisper echoing softly through the room.
Marco moves to close the distance between them, kissing away her tears before catching her lips with his own.
As he kisses her, the bonfire glows brighter. The acrobats catch the light perfectly as they spin. The entire circus sparkles, dazzling every patron.
And then the immaculate cohesion stops as Celia reluctantly breaks away.
“I’m sorry,” she says.
“Please,” Marco says, refusing to let her go, his fingers holding tightly to the lace of her gown. “Please don’t leave me.”
“It’s too late,” she says. “It was too late by the time I arrived in London to turn your notebook into a dove; there were too many people already involved. Anything either of us does has an effect on everyone here, on every patron who walks through those gates. Hundreds if not thousands of people. All flies in a spiderweb that was spun when I was six years old and now I can barely move for fear of losing someone else.”
She looks up at him, lifting her hand to stroke his cheek.
“Will you do something for me?” she asks.
“Anything,” Marco says.
“Don’t come back,” she says, her voice breaking.
She vanishes before Marco can protest, as simply and elegantly as at the end of her act, her gown fading beneath his hands. Only her perfume lingers in the space she occupied moments before.
Marco stands alone in an empty tent with nothing but two rings of chairs and an open door, waiting for him to leave.
Before he departs, he takes a single playing card from his pocket and places it on her chair.
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