Strong Enough - Page 16

Jesus, what the fuck does it matter? Get out of the hallway before he opens the door and catches you standing here, you fucking lunatic!

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I hurried into his room and placed his notebook and phone on the nightstand, but I wasn’t quick enough. He entered the room as I was turning for the door.

“Hey,” he said, his expression surprised. He ran a hand through his wet hair. His chest was bare, and the sweatpants hung low on his hips, so low I could see the top half of the V on his lower abdominals. Although he wasn’t bulky, every muscle on his upper body was sharply defined. My eyes traveled over his skin, lingering low. Deep inside me, something dangerous stirred.

Fuck. This was a mistake.

I forced myself to look up. “Hey. Sorry to bother you. I was just—” I blanked, unsure how to finish my sentence. “I thought you might want your phone and your notebook. I put them on the nightstand.”

He smiled. “That’s so nice of you. I was thinking I should probably call my mother.”

I nodded quickly and moved around him toward the door, giving myself a wide berth. “Night.”

“Night,” he echoed.

But I was already halfway down the hall.

Ten minutes later, I was lying in bed, staring at the ceiling with my hands behind my head.

I was angry with myself. I should know better than to allow that depraved part of me to surface, however briefly. Everything I wanted to achieve in life depended on keeping those dark, confusing urges buried. And hadn’t I mastered the disguise already? Hadn’t I spent years learning to control my sexual appetite? Hadn’t I succeeded in suppressing every forbidden desire I had to the point where I barely felt any desire at all? Why was I letting a couple hours in the company of one handsome stranger undo me?

Because it feels good, desire.

Exhaling, I closed my eyes. It did feel good, that dark and dangerous thing he had awoken in me. It made me feel virile. Carnal. Alive. It gave me hunger, thirst, want. Even now, it threatened to overcome my defenses as my right hand slid down the front of my pants.

Because it feels good, desire.

My cock grew harder inside my fist as I pictured Maxim’s bare chest, tight abs, the sharp V. I threw off the covers, hating myself.

Because it feels good, desire.

His skin would be warm and damp from his shower. His mouth firm and generous. His hands strong. I wanted them on me instead of my own. I wanted mine on him. I wanted to be rough with him, punish him for making me feel this. Be punished in turn for feeling it, for giving in to it.

Because it feels good, desire.

My hand worked harder, faster, tighter. My hips flexed. My stomach muscles contracted. I imagined us together—two hard, strong, muscular bodies moving against each other—unmasked, unabashed, unapologetic. I heard my name on his lips. I tasted his skin on my tongue. I felt his entire body stiffen—or maybe it was mine—all the tension inside me pulling viciously tight, as if it was still trying to suppress the urge, keep the secret, tame the animal, but it’s doomed to fail, there is nothing stronger than lust at that moment, no power so great, and all that I am burst from me in a sudden pulsing rush.

Afterward, my heart still thundering in my chest, my stomach sticky, I lay there hoping I hadn’t made any noise, or that if I had, a hallway between two closed doors would be enough to smother it.

A minute later, I went into my bathroom to clean up, mad at myself for indulging in fantasy but determined to put it behind me. What I’d done was wrong, but ultimately it was meaningless. No need to agonize over it or torture myself. I wasn’t confused; I’d had a moment of weakness, that’s all.

But the moment was over now, and I had total control—of my body, of my mind, of my behavior.

I wouldn’t lose it again.

Eight

MAXIM

I woke up thinking about him. I’d fallen asleep thinking about him too.

But that was only natural, right? I was wearing the guy’s clothes, sleeping under his roof, completely in awe of his generosity. It was gratitude, that was all. I was just really, really grateful. It had nothing to do with the fact that he was so fucking hot, and it didn’t matter anyway, because he was straight.

Except I couldn’t stop wondering about the way he’d looked at me after my shower last night. I’d come back into the bedroom with pants on, but the way he’d stared at my body made me feel like maybe I’d forgotten them. I’d had to look down and double-check. In that moment, the attraction between us had seemed unmistakable. But he’d rushed out of the room so quickly afterward, I wasn’t sure.

Perestan' vydumyvat’, Maxim. Stop imagining things. Even if Derek was gay, which he isn’t, why would he be interested in you?

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