Pieces of Summer

“Eat shit, pickled cunt!” A slight pause takes place, and I wonder if Mrs. Penderson is glaring daggers at Whit or flipping her off while hobbling away. Or strangling her with her cane… My mind always goes to murder.

“You still there?” Whit asks, and I head back toward the phone.

“Yeah. Just thought I’d wait it out,” I say as I take the phone off speaker.

“Anyway, I got all your bills paid. By the way, your bank account makes my bank account very jealous.”

“I wish you’d let me pay you for doing all that,” I tell her on a sigh.

“Hell no. I want to help you, and I don’t want to be paid for it, Mika. Besides, Mrs. Penderson would be up shit creek if I had extra money. I’d move out of this apartment, and she’d have no one to buy her meds when everyone else refuses her. As you can tell, she’s not easy to feel sorry for.”

I laugh lightly while lying back on my couch. Boredom is brutal. Dr. Stein and Whit are my only contacts to the outside world. I call Dr. Stein for therapy purposes, and I call Whit to remember I’m human.

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Shit. Patrol car just pulled up and I’m smoking the pot Mrs. Penderson gave me. Great. I bet that mean old bitch called them,” Whit groans, causing me to strangle on a laugh. “Hey, Dusty!” she yells.

“Put that shit out, Whit,” he calls back, sounding annoyed.

“Damn small towns,” she grumbles.

Never thought I’d miss that small town so much. I spent years away and never missed the town. Then again, it’s not really me missing the town as much as it’s me missing everyone in it. Mainly my two brothers and one guy who is probably back to fucking anything on two legs. That’s how he moved past me the first time.

The taste in my mouth is a mixture of jealousy and self-loathing, and I feel the urge to brush my teeth.

“I need to go,” I tell her, acting like I have a life, when really all I need to do is stop listening about the one I had to give up.

“Yeah. Sure. Call me soon, okay?”

I nod like she can see me before hanging up, and I stare up at my ceiling. At least solitude is helping me with my emotions, even if it is trapping me with them at the same time.

Giving up Aidan is killing me. Giving up Hunter isn’t easy either.

Giving up Chase… It shouldn’t hurt as much as it did last time, but it hurts worse. Probably because I had a taste of what we had once again, only to have it stripped away.

At least I had him for a little while, even if it was just enough to torture me.

Chapter 47

CHASE

“Anything?” I ask Hunter, who helps me lift Aidan off the barstool. Between the two of us, we carry him out to my truck.

“No. Just glad you’re not stuck in a drunken stupor the way he is,” he grumbles.

“I got lost in the bottom of a bottle and other women the last time I lost Mika. It didn’t help. I was a kid then. I’m not anymore. Right now I’m trying not to lose my shit, because I want to deserve her when we find her. Aidan… Aidan just needs to realize this isn’t helping.”

“Dr. Stein wants to see him, because she’s worried about him. Mika allows her to update him on her well-being, but Dr. Stein says she still can’t disclose where Mika is. That’s all he needs to pull himself back together again.”

“Mika isn’t home,” Aidan mumbles, still half passed out as his head flops from side to side.

We put him into the back cab of my truck, and Hunter walks around to get in on the passenger side, while I heave myself in behind the wheel.

“She thinks she’s keeping him from living his life. Does that look like a man who is missing out on life?” Hunter asks me, gesturing behind him as Aidan groans and tries to get comfortable in the back.

“She’s coming home. I just have to figure out a way to find her. Chuck… I think Chuck knows something,” I tell him as we back out of the lot. “Which is one thing helping to keep me from being in a drunken stupor. That and the fact I’ve been focused on my list.”

“What? Why? How?” Hunter asks in a higher pitch than normal as I drive us toward Mika’s home. It’s her home even if she did sign it over to Aidan.