“I want this.” I’m just not ready to say the words yet.
Rolling me to the side, Kol tosses all the pillows and blankets to the floor, clearing the bed before he kneels at my feet. I’m splayed out in the center of the bed, and he stares at me as his hands rub up and down my legs. His breathing is heavy, and his muscles ripple with unrestrained need as he bends forward to kiss my thighs. His touch is firm yet soft, leaving me wanting more. I close my eyes as he pushes up the hem of my shorts, kissing each inch of flesh he uncovers. I don’t waste a moment on feeling anything but desire for this incredible man.
“Kol,” I whisper when he traces his fingers across my most intimate areas. I can feel the warmth of his breath, the heat of his stare as he watches for any inclination that I’m not ready. But I am. I know it in my heart that he is who I was always meant for.
“Blue eyes, look at me.” The husky command in his voice has me acquiescing to his demands. “Eyes open. Watch me.” The gravelly tone of his voice and deepening of his gaze is hypnotic, and I do as he says.
His powerful hands continue their journey as they caress along my hips to my shirt, pushing the material up my chest. As he reveals my breasts, I have a moment of panic. I freeze, and he does, too.
“With me, baby, stay with me.” His voice helps pull me from the edge, falling back into the moment as he kisses my belly button, dipping his tongue in the tiny indent. “You taste like peaches,” he comments.
“My body wash.” I clear my throat to tell him.
“No, this is all you.” His gruff tone and deft fingers make my breath catch as he leisurely pulls my sleep shorts and panties down my legs. “Watch me, Thea. Undressing you is like Christmas morning.” He grins wickedly at my giggle.
“I love that sound,” Kol whispers as he tosses my clothes ove
r his shoulder. Spreading my thighs, his gaze holds mine as his fingers touch me for the first time.
I freeze. I moan. I want to cry.
The man I love is giving me far more than I ever imagined, and I couldn’t be happier. “More, Kol,” I plead, and I can feel the tears welling in my eyes.
“Why the tears, baby?” He stops all movement as I try to get myself under control.
Rising to my knees in front of him, I hold his hand between my legs, showing him that I’m ready. “The tears are happy, Kol. I’ve wanted this moment for so long, and I never thought I would experience what love truly was until you.”
“Thea.” He groans as his hands slide up to cup my chin and grip my hair. His mouth crashes down over mine, and I realize, now, that I’m getting the unfiltered Kol. The passionate man who desires nothing more than to give me every ounce of pleasure he possibly can for as long as he can.
“Now, Kol, please.” I’ll keep begging for as long as I have to.
Laying me on my back, he removes my shirt before pushing down his shorts and reaching for his nightstand. I watch as he comes back holding a condom. Taking it from him, I’m grateful he remembered, and I want to put it on him.
“Can I?” He nods. “I’ve never…” I let the sentence hang. He’ll know what I mean. His hand grips over mine as I roll the rubber over the large head of his cock. He shows me just how much pressure to use and even manipulates my hand to pump the shaft up and down before lifting my hand up to his mouth to kiss my palm.
Spreading my thighs, I make room for his muscled body as he lowers down on top of me. Panic attempts to swell, but I push it back and watch Kol’s face as he gently works himself into my body. With my inexperience, it’s a tight fit, and I worry this isn’t meant to happen for us.
“Breathe for me, blue eyes.” Kol’s cocky grin never fails to relax me.
“You’re too big.” I bite my lip.
“We’re perfect, Thea.” He steals a quick kiss as I feel him slide into my snugness. There’s discomfort and a pinch of pain, but the pleasure quickly blossoms, and I’m panting. “See,” he murmurs. “Perfect.”
As his hips begin to move, I’m lost in the ecstasy his body brings me. The absolute rapture my body is taken away on. I’m lost in the feeling of Kol owning every possible inch of me that it all feels new and so right, and for once, I forget that I’m anything but Kol’s girl.
Kol
* * *
I don’t know how it happened or why, but I’m not letting it go. This love that’s consuming every inch of my soul as Thea gives herself to me freely is almost more than I can handle.
The moment she lets go of all her pain and bad memories is the moment I know I’ve got her for life. Whether either of us is ready to say the words or not doesn’t matter because our bodies do the talking for us. Thea’s eyes are closed, her face is relaxed, and she claws at my back, moaning out her pleasure as I move inside of her.
For a split second, I almost lost her, but my Thea is the toughest girl I know, and she fought back. She broke the chains of her past and is now accepting her future.
Me.
“Thea.” I groan into her ear as her walls tighten on my aching cock.