“I am a soldier, with a special skill set.” That is as close to the truth as I can get.
“Wow. I did not expect you to say that. What branch?”
“Marines. Then I was recruited for something else.” I am trying to stay vague but not lie to her. I just hope she can read between the lines. Her eyes search mine like a heat-seeking missile. I don’t realize I am holding my breath, afraid for the first time since I was a boy. Back then, I was afraid of my father, who hated me for taking my mother from him. He loathed me because she chose my life over her own. He hid his hatred until she died and then I saw the extent of his abhorrence.
This fear comes from being found lacking in her eyes. I need her to see me as her future since there is no alternative. She must find what she is looking for because she smiles at me and nods her head. My chest expels, silently, but with great relief.
“Well, now is the real make or break question,” she says, half smiling and half frowning.
“I’m listening,” I say, smirking, feeding off her energy. The ambiance has shifted slightly, from seriousness a second ago, to lightness and it could also be the song Me! by T Swift, giving us a reprieve from the heavy scent of desire.
“How do you eat chili without oyster crackers?” She deadpans. The loudest, most boisterous laugh I have released since I was five bellows from my body. I am totally shaken by this woman who can make a dead fucker like laugh. She burst out in giggles, clearly shocked by my response. “Oh my. You should do that every day all day,” she says as she cheeses at me.
“What’s that?”
“Laugh and smile.”
“Then make sure you never leave me and I will.” I am a piece of shit for putting that on her so soon, but fuck if it isn’t true. She has just broken me with one silly question and I don’t want to be fixed. She doesn’t answer. Instead, she smiles and ducks her head. “Are you done eating baby?”
“Yea. It was delicious, but I am stuffed,” she says, picking up her plate.
“Not yet you aren’t,” I say before turning toward the sink. I don’t miss her inhale. Good. She just broke me. The least I can do is shock her. “Leave the dishes and go get comfortable in the living room. I will load the dishwasher.” she nods and walks away from me, giving me the time I need to squeeze my cock through my pants and count to 100.
Dishes loaded, I turn toward the couch only to find she is not sitting there. My eyes scan for her and find her, standing in front of my panoramic window, facing the waterfall I had built in my backyard. Her back to me, I stare as the glow from the light above the alcove under the waterfall surrounds her. My fists clench in and out as I try to talk myself out of doing what I am walking toward her to do. “Fuck you smell good,” I whisper in her ear, running my nose up her neck. She moans and tilts her head to the side giving me access. “You have been teasing me all night with your honey, Nova. did you know that?” My hands grasp hers and spread them against the glass, caging her in. Our entwined fingers feel so right against one another.
“No,” she whispers, her forehead leaning against the window.
“I don't believe you, baby. I think you know you have been driving me crazy.” She moans when my teeth nip at her neck and shoulder.
“Loeb.'' She whines my name. Jesus. I am literally losing control. I need her mouth on mine. Grabbing her shoulders, I turn her to face me and take her mouth in an urgent attack, wet and full of longing. My hands still have hers pinned to the glass, because I need to feel like I have the right to own her. I bend my knees slightly, using the friction of my poking zipper to rub against her thick clit. “Ah,” she whines some more, licking her lips. I am a second from snapping and shit if she is not ready.
“Christ, Nova. Tell me to stop. Tell me you don’t want this.” I beg her, my voice raspy and hoarse. My control is tethering on a patch of melting ice and once I fall off, she will come with me. Fight or flight. She says nothing. She continues to rub herself against me like she’s searching for something and forgive me, but the little minx is going to get it. “Last chance, baby. Tell me to let you go, now! So help me once you let me have a taste, I will take the whole course and there will be no escape from me. So what will it be?” I lay the choice at her feet, for the last time. Sweat breaks out all over my body. She could use this moment to put space between us, but she doesn’t.