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nutes later we were speeding east on I-8. I had received a tutorial on a Kel-Tec RFB assault rifle, “a bull pup,” he called it. Barely more than two feet long, it was black and homely. But with the fire-selector capable of semiautomatic and a twenty-round box magazine, it didn’t need to win a beauty contest. I slid it beside me, barrel down, safety on. Peralta slid an assault rifle into the well between his seat and the door. It looked a little like an M-16, but it was matte black with a retracting stock and a rough-edged thing on the barrel that might have been a flash-suppressor or a hand-guard—or not. He didn’t bother to explain besides telling me it was a Colt AR15 Magpul Special.
“A good truck gun,” he said.
My world was still a little blurry from the blast. My stupid question: “Why?”
“I want to have an edge,” he said. “Are you steady enough for this?”
“Yes.”
The question irritated me, but I had no time for that. I had no time for sentimental thoughts about departing from my second hometown as we climbed out of Mission Valley into El Cajon and began the long uphill grind—away from Ocean Beach, away from my other life in this beautiful city and its balm of cooler weather. I opened the glove box, pulled out the gun-cleaning kit, unloaded my Airlite, and began cleaning and oiling it to avoid any trouble from its contact with the pool. My hands shook.
“Sorry you didn’t have any time for fun here,” Peralta said, trying his best to sound sympathetic. “I should have at least set up drinks for you and Isabel, the night detective. To talk over what she found. Anyway, she was cute.”
“You’re trying to set me up? You’re the one who keeps saying Lindsey will come back.”
“You need to get laid, Mapstone. It’d do you a world of good.”
“Like it did you.” I heard my voice, joyless and raw.
Grace, Isabel the detective, Grace’s friend Addison. Oh, I felt old and in a foreign country. The young women’s names sounded either like they belonged to old ladies or unfeminine and strange. I shouldn’t have been so judgmental.
But I was particular in my female names. I liked boomer names like Susan, Amy, and Karen. Pamela: three syllables of sexy. Lisa and Linda were nice. And Patty. I had preferences for Generation X names, too. Heather and Melissa. And Lindsey. And Robin. Addison? No. Leave it to me to start categorizing and analyzing even small things. Maybe it was a good sign. Or maybe I was leaking blood inside my brain from effects of the explosion.
I wanted to take a nap. But then the dreams would come.
This was the first time we had spent alone together since the blast and I briefed Peralta as much as I could. My head hurt despite nearly overdosing on Advil, everything felt slowed down, and concentration was difficult. My shoes, the only casual pair I brought, were still soggy. The one constant thought I could hold was the missing baby.
I did my best to brief him.
He immediately interrupted. “You’re one lucky bastard. The kill zone of a Claymore can be fifty meters. It’s a shaped charge, meant to explode in the direction that it’s pointed. You might have been better off running to the bedroom and getting under the bed. That way you wouldn’t have been directly in front of it.”
“Trust me, there wasn’t anything left of the bedroom, and there was no bed frame.” I started to zone out a little. “Hell, I don’t know. I reacted with instinct. How did they detonate it?”
“Could have been anything nowadays: timer, laser, plus the good old fashioned wires.” One big hand was enough to handle the steering wheel. “We used to set up Claymores to ambush NVA columns. They’d come down a jungle trail and we’d let the gooks get well inside the kill zone. Then we’d set off one at the front of the column and they’d naturally run backwards. That’s when we’d set off the Claymores from the back, going forward.” He laughed malignly.
“Sounds like fun.”
“You don’t know. You weren’t there.” He said this without irony.
“Thank you for your service to the country, sir. Now, may I fucking continue?”
“Sure,” he said. “But how did you realize it was a Claymore?”
“I read about it in a book.”
When my eyes were closed, I started to get dizzy. When I opened them, the car lights from the freeway hurt. Looking off to the shoulder, I was overcome by the fear someone would suddenly step in front of us. So I stared into my lap.
After the explosion, I pulled myself from the pool. My cell phone was ruined, of course. But my gun was fine. It wasn’t needed. No bad guys were there to finish the job. Instead, people were shouting and screaming. I went from apartment to apartment, getting people out, sending them to the street until the fire department could arrive. That seemed to take forever. One man living in my old unit looked badly injured. I found him last, under the remains of a heavy desk that probably saved him, and I stayed with him until the first cop came in the door with a flashlight and a gun.
It was a miracle that the damage wasn’t worse. One person in critical condition, two more suffered less-serious injuries. It helped that the people directly below Tim’s apartment were gone; the same with the residents of the unit directly to the south. No fire followed the explosion and the emergency crews quickly shut off the gas.
I remembered choppers overhead and a bright beam from the sky.
Then, after a cursory checkup by the paramedics, it was all cops, all the time. I never got a chance to have coffee with Sharon. Nor did I have time to order a new cell phone. Instead, I spent the hours telling my story to seven different San Diego cops, including Kimbrough, who was not at all happy to see me. Then ATF showed up and took me downtown to talk more. What sleep I got came from leaning my head against a wall while waiting for the next round of questions.
I was fortunate for a law passed after 9/11, giving retired police officers in good standing the power to carry a concealed firearm in any state. Otherwise, things could have gotten very disagreeable. Somehow Peralta had pulled some levers before he left office and I was able to “retire” with a combined fifteen years service to the Sheriff’s Office. The pension was shit, so don’t judge me as a greedy public employee. But the conceal-carry benefit probably kept me out of jail.