I walked over to her then. I took her hands in mine. I wanted to be closer to her, but I had to be cautious.
“Leaving you was a mistake,” I finally said softly looking down at her. “If I could go back, I would do it differently. If it takes the rest of my life, I will make it up to you, to both of you.”
“Hawk,” Julie said letting our hands fall between us and taking a step back. “I’m talking about Emma, not us. I don’t think that is ever going to be possible again.”
I felt my brow furrow and fall at the same time.
“Is there someone else?” I asked.
“No,” she said with a soft laugh. “Trust me even if I had time for that, no one is lining up to date someone with a kid.”
“Okay,” I said. “Then how about dinner tonight?” I asked.
“What?" She said shocked by my question. “I just told you…”
“I know. I just mean dinner so we can talk over arrangements. You know the whole every other weekend thing.”
I wasn’t surprised to see her nose crinkle in distaste. I knew she wouldn’t like that idea.
“Or we could take it,” I added now moving closer and wrapping my arms around her, “as second chance at a first date. I want Em to have us both, to have a family together. All I’m asking is for a chance to try again.”
“Hawk,” she said softly not meeting my eyes.
I titled her chin up till she looked at me. I could see the glassy look of brimming tears.
“I can’t go through that again,” she whispered.
“Baby, I won’t hurt you again, I swear. I am here for you however you want me, as long as you want me.”
I cupped her face and let her forehead rest against mine.
“I never stopped loving you,” I whispered softly.
I felt her melt into my touch. I tilted her chin and kissed her softly. I pulled away just for a second to make sure she wasn’t going to push me away again.
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p; Instead, she wrapped her arms around my neck and pushed up on her toes to kiss me again. I took her encouragement and wrapped my arms tight around her as I took our kiss deeper.
I reached my hands under her ass and pulled her up to wrap around my legs. I walked her against the door and thrust hard against the thin spandex fabric. I knew she could feel my hard erection when she rocked her hips against it.
In an instant, she was pulling my white coat off and tugging at the buttons and tie on my shirt. It only took a few seconds before she had me entirely bare-chested before her.
She leaned back against the door and pushed her hands against my chest. I thought she was pushing me away again, but instead, she looked me up and down.
“You have a lot more than before,” she said as she ran a lazy finger up and down my abs. It sent little shivers through my body.
I hungrily went to her neck and started to kiss and nip it greedily. I released my hold on her hips, letting the wall and her legs hold her up as I let my hands travel up to cup her breast.
“I want you now," I breathed against her throat.
“Hawk,” she moaned as her fingers intertwined with my hair. I could feel one set of nails scratch along my back, and I pushed my long erection harder against her.
“Hawk,” she said this time with more of a warning tone. “We can’t. Not here.”
My face reached her cupped breasts, and I buried myself between them as I drove my erection against her again.
“Oh fuck!” Julie called out. “Tonight,” she moaned.