I was ready to slam the door in her face. “There is no reason for you to be here.”
“I told you on the phone Todd and I broke up.”
“So?”
“So, I thought it might mean something to you.”
She brushed past me and walked into the living room. She was wearing a short black skirt and a dark pink shirt that was tight enough I could see her nipples through the front. Damn, she wasn’t wearing a bra.
I shrugged. “Sorry you wasted a trip here. But it doesn’t. I don’t give a shit what you and Todd do.” I held the door for her. “Go talk to him about your relationship problems. I haven’t talked to that fucker in three years.”
“Come on, Sam. Isn’t there some little part of you that’s glad?”
“Not really.” Why was she sitting on my couch?
She tucked her hair behind her ears. I remembered how she used to do that in college when we were studying for a test or she was nervous about something.
“What’s going on, Maddie?” I closed the door. She obviously wasn’t going to leave until she got what she came for. “I already told you I’m not giving you any money. Todd can fund your shopping habit. I’ve been out for a long time.”
“I’m not here for money. I heard what you said on the phone. I’m embarrassed I even asked. I called you because I was desperate and scared. I shouldn’t have done that. It was a weak moment. I’m sorry.”
I scratched the back of my head. “Okay, so we’ve got that figured out. Why are you here?”
She wrung her manicured hands together. “I think I made a mistake.”
“Other than a drunken phone call?”
“Stop being such a dick, Sam. Yes, I made a mistake about us.”
“Now you think you made a mistake?” I couldn’t fucking believe this.
She nodded. “Will you listen? Just listen to me. Please.”
“No. You’re talking about something that happened years ago. I’m over it. I’m over you. I don’t care about Todd or your damn breakup. Go get a job. Make some money like normal people do and leave me the hell alone.” My voice boomed across the apartment.
She started to tear up. “Oh, hell. Don’t cry about it. We haven’t been a thing in a long time. I can’t make you cry. You didn’t cry when you cheated on me.” I glared at her.
She took a deep breath. “I’m not going to cry. It’s just that when I see you, I remember all the fun we had, and how much you made me laugh. And I know I shouldn’t have cheated on you. It was wrong. I was wrong.”
I nodded. “Now you’ve got something right. So you can clear your little conscience and get the hell out of my apartment.”
I didn’t like her being here. I didn’t like her acting as if this was even a possibility.
“Nothing? You feel nothing?” she prodded.
I pulled out my phone. “No. See?” I scrolled through to the picture of Natalia and me at the lake. “I have someone. Someone who doesn’t cheat. A woman who I’m fucking insane about.” I shoved the picture closer so she could see how serious I was. “This woman is my life. You are a bad memory.”
She closed her eyes and the tears started to slide down her cheeks this time.
“Shit. Hold on.” I dropped my phone on the table and walked to the bathroom to grab a tissue. I looked through a few drawers before I found one. Part of me wanted to throw her crying ass in the hall, but I didn’t.
“Here.” I handed the tissue to her when I returned to the couch.
“Thanks,” she sniffed, pressing it to the corners of her eyes. “You sound like you’ve found someone special then.”
“Yes, I have. Natalia isn’t like you. She wouldn’t do what you did. I’m happy, Maddie. I’m happier than I’ve ever been. So drop this idea that you have. You can give up on whatever scheme you have to get back together and drain my bank account.”
I started to relax. I didn’t have to be a complete asshole, even though this girl had shredded my heart at the start of the season. She had fucked my roommate all summer and the only reason I found out was I walked in on them. It was a day I didn’t like to remember.