Her eyes widened. “I don’t follow.”
“What Sawyer is trying to say is that we want you to be that woman. We want you, equally.”
She reached for the desk. “I need more bourbon.”
“Here have mine.” Jack handed her what was left of his drink. She inhaled it. “Is that better?” he asked.
She nodded. “I think so.”
“We can offer you so much,” Sawyer spoke slowly. “So much. And if you want that baby, we both thought about it. We’re in. We’ll give you as many babies as you want.”
She looked into the depths of his dark eyes. There was no doubt he could give her something she’d never experienced before, but she turned to Jack. His green eyes shimmered in the dim light. His eyes offered something completely different—something mischievous and fun.
“Because I asked for a baby, you’re willing to give me one?” It didn’t make sense.
They nodded. “We just want lots of practice.”
“How?” she asked.
“Give it a chance,” Jack prodded. “Let us show you how you can have both of us.”
“I’m practically a virgin,” she blurted out and then hung her head in shame. “I’m sorry. I’m not experienced enough. I’ve never been sexually adventurous or experiemental. I’m sorry—I’d only disappoint you.”
“Hey.” He tipped her chin up to meet his gaze. “Don’t ever apologize. You could never disappoint us. We can teach you so much.”
Jack came around behind her, resting his hands on her shoulders and slowly massaging into her neck. “Practically, huh?”
She nodded, giggling. “I mean I’ve had sex, but never with two guys. And never—you know…never…” She couldn’t bring herself to say it. There was only one way a three-way would happen and she’d never even thought about experiencing sex in that place. That forbidden place.
She thought she heard both men groan at her words. What had she said?
“So you’ve never had anal?”
She swallowed hard. “No,” she whispered.
“Do you want it, Lily?” Sawyer asked.
Was the time she was supposed to admit that since the day of Rachel’s wedding three weeks ago, she’d looked up anal sex online? She’d searched for pictures and read articles about positions. The sexy groomsmen had opened up a curiosity she couldn’t shut down.
“Yes,” she admitted. “I think I do.”
“Come home with us,” Jack urged.
She laughed. “I-I’m worried I’m not brave.”
He pressed into her shoulders again. It was hard to ignore how good his hands felt.
“Let’s talk about it then.” Sawyer held her gaze. “What are you scared of?”
She wanted to shout out all the things running through her head. She wasn’t some kind of sexual goddess. She could never handle both of them. What if she didn’t live up to their expectations? What if she failed them? And then there were all the pictures she had seen. She knew they were porn sites, but how did she tell them it looked painful to have two cocks inside her at once?
“I’m too embarrassed to say.” She licked her lips. “I don’t even know what questions to ask. That’s how new I am to this.”
“You must want to know something.”
She nodded. She wanted to know how it would feel. That was the one thing none of the articles could tell her. How did it feel to have a man push inside her ass? How would it feel to let another man insider her walls at the same time?
“I do have a question.” She inhaled sharply. “It’s about you two. Do you two? Are you two…do you two…fine, I’ll just say it. Do you two fuck?”