My body was still loose from Ronan’s initial intrusion but when he added a second finger, I felt my whole body lock up. But instead of forcing himself farther inside of me, Ronan just went right on kissing me and when he released my lips, it was only so he could settle his mouth next to my ear.
“I’ve dreamed of this moment,” he said, his rumbly voice barely a whisper. “It’s kept me awake at night…wondering what it would feel like to be buried inside of you. Wondering if I’d survive it.”
“Survive what?” I managed to ask even as I felt his fingers sink deeper into me. I let out a loud groan when they brushed my gland but the contact was all too brief.
“Knowing your body was made for mine and mine for yours…a perfect fit.”
I didn’t get a chance to respond because he was kissing me again and his fingers started massaging my inner walls. The burning sensation began to ease as he started finger fucking me and I found myself trying to push down on his digits to get more of their thick length inside of me because suddenly, I felt too empty.
Ronan released me so that he could sit up and search out the discarded condom. I missed the feel of his fingers as he pulled them free so he could work the condom on, but just seeing how big his engorged cock was compared to his fingers had me squirming both with nerves and excitement. He spread the remaining lube from the packet over his sheathed cock and then got into position between my legs. He reached past my head and grabbed a pillow and then worked it beneath my hips. The new position made me feel on display but even more so when Ronan used his hands to spread me open for his perusal and then trailed his hungry gaze over my entire body. I held my breath as he studied me. A bout of anxiety overcame me as I wondered if he liked what he was seeing. While I’d never really given my looks much thought as I’d gotten older, I couldn’t help but compare myself to the man who’d been lucky enough to have every part of Ronan…Trace…the man who would always be a part of us no matter what the future brought.
“Seth,” Ronan said gently and I looked up, not even realizing I’d dropped my gaze.
“You’re fucking perfect,” Ronan said, the words sounding more like an order than a compliment. And I knew he’d realized the train of my thoughts.
I managed a nod but that didn’t seem to satisfy Ronan so I said, “I know you see me, Ronan. I know it.”
To my relief, Ronan leaned over and kissed me hard. “Tell me you want this.”
“I do,” I said. “More than anything.” I realized they were dangerous words to say, but luckily Ronan didn’t seem to dwell on their double meaning and he leaned back and shifted his lower body until I felt the head of his cock brush up against my hole.
“Bear down on me,” was all Ronan said as he finally began to breach me. I did as he said but nothing prepared me for the intense pressure and discomfort I felt as his crown pushed inside of me. I tried holding my breath but that seemed to make it worse so I just focused on watching Ronan’s face. The extreme concentration and determination in his gaze as he focused on where our bodies were joined had me holding my tongue when the pain started to increase. But then something in my body gave way and Ronan sank inside of me. The relief was instantaneous because the pain dissipated and all I felt was the slight burn and pressure that I already knew from when Ronan had used his fingers on me, would turn into something better.
“Okay?” Ronan managed to ask through gritted teeth. I could see the sweat dotting his brow and I knew he was struggling just as much as I was. But while I was trying to accommodate the newness of what was happening to me, he was struggling to make sure all I felt was perfection.
He shifted just as I was about to answer and the move had him sliding deeper inside of me. Right after the burning sensation was a flash of something so raw and pleasurable that I actually tried to drive my hips forward onto him just so I could feel it again. “Please, Ronan, more,” I begged, barely recognizing the keening tone coming from my lips.
As I jammed my hips up again, Ronan let out a loud curse and then he pushed forward until he bottomed out inside me. I swallowed hard at the rush of near pain that came over me but just knowing that I was finally joined with Ronan in this way was enough for me to ignore the sting that was firing through my ass. I expected Ronan to start moving at that point but he surprised me by leaning over and crushing his lips down on mine. As he kissed me, I felt his cock pulsing and throbbing inside of me and I cursed the latex barrier that was keeping every part of him from me.