Firefly Lane (Firefly Lane 1)

Tully could barely maintain eye contact, she was so ashamed. "I didnt mean to. "

"People dont lie accidentally. Its not like tripping over a crack in the sidewalk. "

"You dont know how it feels to be embarrassed by your mom. "

"Are you kidding? You should have seen what my mom wore out to dinner last—"

"No," Tully said. "You dont know. "

"Tell me. "

Tully knew what Kate was asking of her; she wanted the truth that had spawned the lie, but Tully didnt know if she could do it, turn all her pain into words and pass them out like cards. All her life shed kept these secrets close. If she told Kate the reality and then lost her as a friend, it would be unbearable.

Then again, if she didnt tell the truth, shed lose the friendship for sure.

"I was two years old," she finally said, "when my mom first dumped me at my grandparents house. She went to town for milk and came back when I was four. When I was ten, she showed up again and I thought it meant she loved me. That time she let go of me in a crowd. The next time I saw her I was fourteen. My grans letting us live in this house and sending us money every week. Thatll last until my mom bails again—which she will do. "

"I dont understand. "

"Of course you dont. My mom isnt like yours. This is the longest amount of time Ive ever spent with her. Sooner or later shell get bored and move on without me. "

"How can a mother do that?"

Tully shrugged. "I think theres something wrong with me. "

"Theres nothing wrong with you. Shes the loser. But I still dont get why you lied to me. "

Tully finally looked at her. "I wanted you to like me. "

"You were worried about me?" Kate burst out laughing. Tully was just about to ask her what was so funny when she sobered and said, "No more lies, right?"

"Absolutely. "

"Well be best friends forever," Kate said earnestly. "Okay?"

"You mean youll always be there for me?"

"Always," Kate answered. "No matter what. "

Tully felt an emotion open up inside her like some exotic flower. She could practically smell its honeyed scent in the air. For the first time in her life, she felt totally safe with someone. "Forever," she promised. "No matter what. "

Kate would always remember the summer after eighth grade as one of the best times of her life. Every weekday, she rushed through her morning chores without complaint and babysat her brother until three oclock, when her mom came home from running errands and volunteering on the 4-H council. After that, Kate was free. Weekends were, for the most part, her own.

She and Tully rode their bikes all over the valley and spent hours inner-tubing down the Pilchuck River. In the late afternoons, they stretched out on tiny towels, wearing neon-colored crocheted bikinis, their skin slick with a mixture of baby oil and iodine, listening to Top 40 music on the transistor radio they never left behind. They talked about everything: fashion, music, boys, the war and what was still going on over there, what it would be like to be a reporting duo, movies. Nothing was off-limits; no question couldnt be volleyed over the net. Now it was late August and they were in Kates bedroom, packing makeup for their trip to the fair. As usual, Kate had to change clothes and put on makeup after she left the house. If she wanted to look cool, anyway. Her mom still thought she was too young for everything. "You got your tube top?" Tully asked.

"Got it. "

Grinning at their own brilliant plan, they headed downstairs, where Dad was sitting on the sofa, watching television.

"Were going to the fair now," Kate said, thankful that her mother wasnt here. Mom would notice the bag that was too big for the county fair. Her X-ray vision would probably see through the macramé exterior to the clothes, shoes, and makeup within.

"Be careful, you two," he said without looking up.

It was what he always said now, ever since girls had started disappearing in Seattle. The news was calling the killer "Ted" these days because some girl at Lake Sammamish State Park had actually gotten away and given a description and his first name to the police. Girls all across the state were terrified. You couldnt see a yellow VW bug without worrying that it was Teds car.

"Well be super careful," Tully said, smiling. She loved it when Kates parents worried about them.

Kate crossed the room to kiss her dad goodbye. He curled an arm around her and handed her a ten-dollar bill. "Have fun. "