“I think that he has more to give than that.”
“For your sake, I hope that you’re right.”
#Chapter10
The following week I was out with Vince for dinner. We went to another one of his fancy restaurants. He was my oasis and my escape from my everyday life. I realized just how much I missed him as I sat across from him.
We caught up with each other and our energy was the same way that it always was. It was comfortable, light-hearted and fun. His smile made me beam and dinner went by far too quickly.
“How about we go dancing again.” he said.
“I think that you just want to grind against me again.”
“Can you blame me? Your ass just feels so good pressed against me.”
“Before we go, we need to talk.”
“Should I be nervous?”
“I don’t think so. I just want to get some thoughts out of my head. I need to ask you something.”
“Go ahead.”
“How do you view me? I don’t want to be your sugar baby; I want to be your girlfriend.”
He hesitated before he answered, “I think that we should just go with the flow. There isn’t a need to rush anything.”
“I think it’s better to get things out in the open so that we don’t waste any time. I don’t want to see you if I feel like I’m being paid to do it.”
He sighed deeply, “The first time we went out, I had the time of my life. I’d never connected with a woman so well on the first date, not even my ex-wife. I admit that I totally forgot about the circumstances that we met under but when you brought up the money, it snapped me back to reality.”
“I know but I did it on accident. I don’t want to blame my friend but I was letting her get into my head. I regretted it from the moment that it left my lips.”
He nodded along as I spoke. “I’m sorry but giving you the money now makes it hard for me to see you in any other way. The fact that you asked at all solidifies our relationship. I don’t work in reverse. Maybe if you’d never brought up the money then things would be different but now I just can’t be sure of your motives.”
“I understand.” I whispered in disappointed.
“Maybe I’m just not ready to date traditionally. I like things better this way. My wife was only with me for the money and so it makes it hard for me to trust a woman with my heart. I need a clear-cut arrangement.”
“Then why did you want to see me again after that?”
“I think you are amazing Roxanne. I just wanted to spend more time with you, it didn’t matter the cost. If it were any other woman then I wouldn’t have.”
“Do you feel like we can ever have anything real?”
“Maybe if the circumstances were different but it’s just too late now. I wished that things could be different but it’s just all too complicated. I don’t do complicated.”
It felt like he was river dancing all over my heart. I did the only thing that I could at that moment. I rose from the table and kissed him on the cheek, “I understand. I wish that we’d met in a different way.”
“Would you like me to call you a cab or take you home?”
“No thank you, I can take the bus.”
“I don’t want you on the bus.”
“You don’t have the right to tell me what you want. Enjoy your evening.”