We finished the whole bottle while very pointedly not discussing kissing. “I’m not sick,” I tell her so at least she won’t worry. Even though I feel worse than when I had the flu. I hope a hangover doesn’t last for days.
“I’ll take your temperature,” she says, heading toward the bathroom connected to my room.
“No,” I protest. The thought of something beeping in my ear makes me cringe. I force myself to sit
up, to prove I’m okay. “See? I’m fine.”
Honor is wearing a cream vintage blouse and black pencil skirt. She always looks so put together. I glance at the clock. Ten o’clock in the morning. Okay, I guess it’s not that early. Still, she looks classy and stylish at any hour of the day. Her expression is tight. Because of me?
“I’m fine,” I repeat.
The line of worry between her eyes fades, but her lips are still pressed together. There’s something about her expression that’s familiar. Then I realize… it’s pain. Real pain. Not the kind of throbbing ache I’m experiencing now, an ache I completely deserve. This is something else.
I stand and approach her.
“We’re meeting with the caterer in thirty minutes,” she says. She’s letting me sit in on the planning sessions so I can feel involved. The food, the cake. The fireworks.
Kind of crazy, having fireworks in the middle of a freaking drought. That’s the benefit of having the fire inspector in your pocket. Or Byron’s pocket.
Gently, I take her arm. I press the sheer fabric against her skin—and with the fabric taut, I can see. There they are, three bruises. “Did Byron do this to you?”
She pulls away. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
I roll my eyes. “Maybe that works on other people, but not me. I’m going to go punch him in the face.”
She looks alarmed, even though the punching thing is pretty unlikely. I’m not even tall enough. And he’d probably shoot me. I don’t mind telling him off, though. He can’t shoot me for that.
“Stay away from him,” she warns.
“Or what? He’ll grab me too? He probably hurts you other places, doesn’t he? Places I can’t even see.”
She shakes her head even though I know it’s true. She’s not even really denying it. She’s saying leave it alone. “Anything you do will just make it worse.”
I hate that she’s right about that. “Then we’ll talk to Daddy. He can make him stop.”
Pain flashes over Honor’s face. “He already knows.”
My eyes close. I’d been afraid of that. Afraid that Byron’s connections and money were worth seeing my sister hurt. Byron may be relatively new to the scene, but he’s ambitious. And like Brutus, an ambitious man is a dangerous one. He has money and connections. My father is old and growing weaker. The other factions could see it as an opportunity to take over. So he’s solidified his rule by grooming Byron to take over—and marrying his oldest daughter to him as insurance.
I swallow hard. Our father never took much interest in me, except in the worst way.
Probably the rumors are true and I’m not really his daughter. I don’t have the dark hair and olive skin that marks our family. I have strawberry-blonde hair and freckles. But he’s always been fond of Honor. If he is willing to sacrifice her to assure our position, he must really have been worried about a takeover.
“What can Byron even do for him?” I ask, half angry, half wondering.
Honor lifts one shoulder. “He has everyone intimidated. Judges. Drug suppliers. He’s working both sides.”
I stare at the place where the bruises are. I can’t see them when the fabric rests naturally away from her skin. I’m sure that’s on purpose. She must keep an inventory of where her bruises are and make sure they’re covered up. It makes me exhausted—and desperate.
“Then let’s go,” I say. We don’t need Gio to take us away. We can leave ourselves.
She frowns, her delicate eyebrows drawing together. “What are you saying?”
“I’m saying let’s run away. Just you and me.” My throat goes tight as I imagine never seeing Gio again. And I tell her the same thing I told him, though my voice cracks this time. “It will be an adventure.”
Her head is shaking no no no. “They’d find us. There’s no way, Clara. Don’t even say the words.”
But I’ve already said them. And once they’re out, I can’t put them away. Not when I close my eyes and see the dark bluish imprint of Byron’s fingers. “We’ll find some way to hide. To go underground. It has to be better than this, than you getting hurt.”