“That man is suuuuuuch a prick. That is going to come back to haunt you, mark my words.” She stabs a finger in the air toward my nose.
“I’m sure it will. Then, when Julie walked in after and called me upstairs my heart stopped.” I brush my bangs back; I need a haircut but that has not been in the budget. Andrea has been trimming my bangs for me for the last six months during our lunch breaks.
She sticks her tongue out at one of our co-workers who is staring at her. She gets that a lot, even here at work; the guys just can’t seem to help themselves. The back room at the gallery is fitted with five enormous, flat-topped tables, where we do the framing for the artwork both for the gallery displays and client custom work.
I like the work itself quite a lot. It’s creative, hands-on, and doesn’t require all that much human interaction. Or reading. Because although that is a simple task for most people, for me letters like to spin and find ways to make it impossible for me to make sense out of them.
But, when I’m on my own, when no one is watching or waiting for me, I love books. Stories. I just need to take my time, so although most people would think I would hate reading I don’t. I just don’t like doing it in front of people.
Waiting on the customers here isn’t so bad. You show them what you think will look good on their artwork, make some small talk if necessary.
Andrea looks down at her freshly manicured fingernails as she turns to say something. “Bet it was a surprise when Julie offered
you a promotion insteading of firing you.”
I smile down at the piece of artwork I’m sliding into a frame and Andrea hops up and takes a seat on the table next to me, leaning down closer to keep our conversation private.
None of the other employees know I’m being transferred to our newest flagship store in Belvedere, three hours north of here. It’s a very upscale, vacation community that surrounds Lake Sherwood. You can’t touch a property around there for less than the upper six figures. But it’s straight out of a magazine. The houses are all set behind long, stone fences, looking like fortresses along the shore.
Mom and I used to go up that way for lunch, or just to drive around the lake sometimes on the days she was feeling up to it. When the sun would go down, I always looked at the houses, the lights on inside, wondering what it would be like to be on the inside looking out instead of the other way around. It always reminded me of The Great Gatsby. I used to look for the single green light, far away across the lake. Thinking of Daisy and Gatsby.
Anyway, I start at the new store tomorrow, and I’m thankful my mom’s old beat-up Corolla is still humming and I have a half tank of gas to get me there. Hopefully.
They offered me an assistant manager position, and both the money and the change of pace are welcome. What isn’t welcome is Eddie will be there as well.
I flip over the large photo portrait and secure the corners with the metal frame brackets, blowing an errant tendril of mud-colored brown hair out of my eyes.
“I almost punched Eddie when Julie asked if I would mind moving. If I would be willing to give up my apartment.” I heave out a breath, which takes more effort than it should, the anxiety still tight in my belly. “I had to tell him everything this morning when he found me sleeping on the sofa in Julie’s office. I hated it. He just smiled the entire time.”
Julie is the regional manager of the chain of galleries and picture framing shops I work for, and Eddie is the area manager. Julie is as by the book as they come, and if she knew I used my key to come in here last night and camp out, I’d be at the unemployment office right now, not getting promoted.
There is a low thud starting in my temples as I tell her the rest. “Julie offered to put me up in the same hotel where Eddie is staying. That was so akward. I panicked, said I had an aunt that lived near by just so I wouldn’t have to stay in the same place as him. Good thing we get paid today, I will have to find someplace else and pay for it myself. I doubt it will be as nice as the Hampton Inn she offered.” I wince when I slip my finger on a piece of wire and it jabs me with a pin prick.
Eddie is married, but he has already made it clear he would be more than happy to entertain Andrea on the side. Now he seems to be setting his eyes on me. He’s a fifty-something, chain-smoking, cheating son-of-a-bitch, and my stomach turns every time he enters my personal space.
He walked in early this morning and found me asleep on the couch in Julie’s office, snoring and drooling, dressed in a t-shirt, pink panties and nothing else. The contents of my duffel bag, which I usually keep in the car, were all over the floor of the office. Because, as of yesterday, I don’t have anywhere to go. That one duffel bag is everything I own.
It’s not even full.
“Your life sorta sucks right now, Cassie. I’m sorry I can’t help. I’ve been camping out at my Aunt’s house since Jimmy and I broke up. I get it. And losing your mom and Cherokee in the same month.” Andrea drops her eyes and shoves her hands under her thighs. “I heard Eddie’s wife left him too.”
That doesn’t surprise me. But my mind is on my own predicament.
My throat tightens, like there is an egg or baseball lodged in there, and my hand shakes a little as I wire the back of the picture and turn it back over to clean the glass one more time. Then I’ll wrap it up for the customer and move on to the next one. I look down as I wipe the glass cleaner away, my reflection staring up at me with pity. Or is it contempt? I don’t know what I feel right now. Even about myself.
The mention of Cherokee and Mom choke me up, and a burning tear drops onto the glass. I quickly wipe it away with my thumb, not wanting Andrea to see. Cherokee was my dog. That doesn’t really describe him and his importance in my life, but he was a dog.
And, well, my mom was my mom.
She was the kind of mom you sang ‘Proud Mary’ into your hairbrushes together. She gave me enough boundaries to keep me safe but not so many I ever felt caged. She brought home purple hair dye one Christmas Eve. We were flat broke and I knew Santa would be flying right on by our house that year. So, with purple hair and a few strings of Christmas lights, she read Charles Dickens to me and we strung popcorn onto thread then draped it over the five-dollar tree she managed to bribe the guy at the corner tree lot to sell to her. It made Charlie Brown’s tree look like the one outside of Rockefeller Center.
Later on, she gave me the wisdom that only someone who knows they’re dying can give. She made me smile and she made me want to take care of her until the last day. Which I did.
She named me Chastity, but everyone calls me Cassie.
Her first breast cancer diagnosis came eight years ago, but the problems started long before that. Since Dad hightailed it out of our life when I was seven, Mom struggled to put food on our table. She had a small disability check from the federal government, and a paltry pension, but when she passed away there was no way I could catch up on the rent that was already behind.
As of approximately twenty-four hours ago, I’m homeless. I only have the possessions I managed to stuff into the duffel bag. Everything else is pad-locked in the apartment until there is a court date to finalize the eviction in thirty days. If I don’t come up with the back rent and court costs, I’ll lose everything that’s left inside.