Desired (Club Sin 3)

“Okay.” Though she understood the necessity of the conversation, it felt awkward. From what she’d read in BDSM 101, everything Kyler did and all the communication made him a good Dom.

She had no doubt about that.

He drew in a long breath and then continued. “You’re new to all this, so there will be a learning curve for both of us. I need to get to know you. You need to learn what I expect. We’ll take things slowly once I get you into a scene.”

“Makes sense.” Heat flooded her from head to toe, leaving her fidgeting against the hard cushion.

His mouth twitched, his gaze sizzled. “If you have questions about your first scene, now is the time to ask them.”

God, I have a thousand questions. Where to start? At the beginning, she supposed. “Will you tell me what to do? Like how to act at first, because I imagine I’m going to feel like a mouse in a pit full of lions.”

He chuckled. “Of course. I’ll make sure you understand everything that is going to happen before it does. I’m there to guide you throughout. You’ll never feel unstable or unsure.” He took her hand in his, wrapping her in his strength. “I’m well aware this will come with nerves on your part. I won’t push you too far, Ella. I want this to be fun.”

“Okay.”

“There are personal things that I don’t like a submissive to do and that I will correct during our playtime.”

“Like what?” she blurted out.

“Some are small personal preferences, like eye contact.” He ran his thumb over her hand, f

ollowing the movement with his gaze. “But I will explain all this in the scene. You won’t question what I expect. It’ll all be very clear.” He paused, studying her intently. “In regard to something I don’t like, how you orgasm easily poses a problem for me.”

“Don’t most men like that?” She laughed.

A flare erupted in his potent stare. “We’re not talking about most men, we are taking about me.” There was hardness in his voice as he continued, “And no, I don’t like that. Your pleasure can’t ever build because it unleashes too quickly.”

She watched him, seeing he was dead serious. In fact, this conversation was the most stern she’d ever seen him. From what she’d read, a good Dom always negotiated the scene with his submissive first, and she supposed Kyler took all that very seriously. Somehow it made him all the more worthy. “And you plan to fix my orgasms?” she mused.

He nodded. “That I will.”

She studied him, looking for any uncertainty in his features, but there was none. As it seemed, he firmly believed he’d fix her orgasms, for cripes’ sake. Wasn’t that the point of sex—to orgasm?

Before she could state as much, he went on, “My personal preferences are things you’ll learn over time. There’s no need to rush anything. For now, if you have questions during the scene it’s all right that you ask me. I want you to be comfortable.”

She pondered, nibbling her lip. “But I get no say in what happens during the scene?” At the shake of his head, she added, “And I’ll learn through punishment when I do something that you don’t like?”

She’d seen submissives at Club Sin being punished. Some in horrible ways, others in creative ways that were sometimes funny. One submissive had a butt plug inserted that looked like a horse’s tail, because her Dom had said she kept whining at him and it sounded like neighing.

Kyler slid his fingers down her forearm, stirring heat. “There will be some punishment, yes, but not at first. You’re new to the lifestyle, and I understand this. You’ll be allowed to make a few mistakes before punishment comes into play.” He winked. “As long as they aren’t big mistakes.”

“Big mistakes like …?”

“Being outright disobedient or disrespectful to me.” He swirled his fingers over her tattoo. “I doubt you have it in you to behave that way, anyway. So, the point is moot, which is why you don’t need to worry.”

She looked to her coffee cup, then up to him. “Will you embarrass me through punishments?”

“If that’s something that worries you, then you’ll add it to your hard limits.” He softened his voice, regarding her with a keen eye. “Remember, you have control here, and can set up a scene in a way that makes you comfortable. And you have a safe word. I want this to be enjoyable for you. Yes, you have to learn my preferences, but I’m not cruel, and I never punish through humiliation. I want your experience to bring something to your life, not take anything away.”

Put that way, she realized he was right. Kyler was kind and gentle, and also rough when he wanted to be. A Dom knows when to hold your hand, and knows when to give it to you rough when you need it.

Right to the heart of it, she did trust Kyler. A lot. “Okay, so what now?”

He pushed the bag toward her. “There is a butterfly vibrator in the bag. Go into the bathroom and put it on under your panties.”

She blinked. “Pardon me?”

He folded his arms, and his expression showed very little. “You want to enter a D/s relationship with me, Ella, this is part of it. While I play mostly in the dungeon, I also play outside its walls. You are free to say dragon, which is Club Sin’s safe word, if you don’t want to do this.”