When I turn she’s already crawling into bed.
It’s not even five-o-clock.
Nova’s always been so strong, stronger than me, but right now she’s broken and I don’t know how to fix it.
I’ve never felt so helpless.
It’s my own personal hell watching the girl I love fall apart and become a shadow of herself.
I sit down on the couch and pick up my guitar and notebook.
The lyrics pour out of me, filling the page.
It’s possibly the saddest song I’ve written, but still full of hope, because if there’s one thing I’ve learned it’s we always have hope.
Nova
I hang up the phone from the doctor and smile at Jace.
“Both of us came back negative for any abnormalities. The doctor says to be patient and sometimes it takes time.”
I feel so overwhelmingly relieved. We had our appointment a few days ago and it’s been hell waiting for the results. I wanted to know immediately but since some labs had to be sent off we’ve had to wait.
Jace grins back at me and wraps his arms around me. I laugh as he swings me around. When he sets me down he plants a loud kiss on my lips.
“This is going to happen soon. I feel it.”
I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I was so fearful there was something wrong with one or both of us. I feel silly now for being so upset about not getting pregnant immediately. Of course it doesn’t always happen overnight.
I look at the time and curse. “We need to go.”
We’re supposed to be meeting our friends for dinner in fifteen minutes. Since I knew the doctor was supposed to call I wanted to wait. We haven’t told our friends yet that we’re hoping to have a baby, so I wanted to avoid taking a phone call in front of them about this.
I know we need to tell them eventually, but I know they’re going to be judgmental about it. They’ve already made so many comments about our decision not to get married, which kind of pisses me off.
We don’t judge people for getting married, so why should married people judge us for choosing not to go down that path?
Jace and I feel our love speaks for itself. We don’t need a ceremony and flimsy piece of paper to confirm that.
“Are you okay?” Jace asks, breaking into my thoughts as he grabs his truck keys from the kitchen counter.
“Yeah,” I mumble.
I slip my Converse on and then we head to the restaurant. Luckily, it’s not close by so we only end up being fifteen minutes late.
The others are already there and we meet them at the table.
“Sorry we’re late,” I apologize. “What’d we miss?”
“Nothing much.” Rae laughs, sipping at a glass of wine. “Just Thea educating Cade on the most stimulating sex positions.”
Thea smiles widely. “I like to make him mad.”
“I’m pretty sure you like to make everybody mad.” Jace chuckles, grabbing a roll from the basket on the table.
Thea shrugs. “It’s a talent. What can I say?”
Beside her, Xander shakes his head, stifling a laugh. I think he learned a long time ago to embrace her crazy.