Deliciously Damaged (Reckless Bastards MC 3)

I frowned. “That doesn’t sound like a problem to me.” Hell, I’d always thought it was the best way to have sex because then you didn’t have to look your partner in the face and remember it later. Nope. Just the memory of the cock, not the man.

“Yeah well, maybe you don’t have a man as sexy and handsome as mine,” she said with that dreamy look on her face single women loathed.

“Since I don’t have a man at all, that’s probably accurate,” I said casually.

Besides, I’d never been so smitten with anyone like that. No man had ever made me smile that way or said such cheesy things to me.

“Besides, you have to say that since you’re marrying him.”

They both laughed at my words, giving me that “wait ‘til it happens to you” look.

“Did you really ride here with Savior?”

Both women leaned forward as much as they could, given their considerable baby bumps, eager to hear any gossip.

“I did.”

I gave them a quick rundown of his behavior lately. “He beat me at my own game and then gave me three orgasms this morning until I submitted.”

“All right!” Jana and Teddy high fived each other like boys in a locker room.

“Settle down, baby mamas, it was just a little harmless sex. Nothing to go nuts over.”

“Ha!” Teddy tilted her head back and laughed. “Everyone who believes that, raise your hand.”

I raised mine and she smacked it down with more force than a pregnant woman should be allowed to have.

“That’s how it was with me and Max and now we’re here for our wedding.” Jana gazed down at her wedding bling with a loopy smile on her face.

“Yep, me too. Tate and I were fuck buddies only and now look at us.” She wore the same goofy look Jana had, which I guessed was love. They both looked happy and that was what mattered.

“Clearly you both were looking for that. I’m clearly not.”

I’d spend the next few days enjoying Savior’s hard body and the orgasms he gave me but as soon as we got back to Vegas, I’d keep my distance. There was something in the water in Mayhem and in Vegas and I didn’t want any part of it.

“Thanks for inviting me, I’ve never been to California.”

“I’m glad you came,” Jana insisted with a genuine smile. “You are part of our group now. Of course you’re invited. I just hope you know you can call either of us, just to talk or hang out.”

I nodded, hearing what they were both saying.

“I haven’t had any real friends in a long time,” I told them but the truth was I didn’t know if I’d ever had any real friends. Krissy was the closest thing to a friend I’d ever had and she was a user. “It’ll take some getting used to, but I’ll try my best.”

They both smiled but soon the men joined us and both Max and Tate whisked their women off, leaving me on my own. Again. The ocean called to me, as it always did. In New York I spent plenty of time just looking out at the Hudson River and if I could swing it, I’d get out to watch the dark blue waters of the Atlantic. The water here was lighter, cold, but not quite as icy.

The air was salty with a hint of the fishiness that gave many of the people in town their livelihood. Seeing the water, so vast and never ending, made me think of impossible things, like who I would’ve been if I hadn’t lost everyone that mattered to me. It was such a foreign thought, I never got further than simple family dinners with Mom, Dad and Ammo.

“Penny for your thoughts.” Savior’s deep voice startled me but I didn’t turn to look at him, I couldn’t. I didn’t want him to see what was on my mind.

“My thoughts are too dark for pennies, got any drachmas?” I laughed but he didn’t, a sure sign he wasn’t buying my attempt at levity. Savior grabbed my hand, and we walked along the water, the music from the party growing more distant with every step.

“No drachmas, but I’ve got a strong stomach.”

I was sure he did, considering what he’d probably seen as a solider and then a Reckless Bastard. But I still didn’t want to share my dreams with anyone. “What’s your real name?”

“Vick.”

“Not quite as cool as Savior, but very hot.”