“What’s going on?” I don’t even look at the note. “What does this say?”
“Basically that I’m leaving. That I have to get out of here to keep everyone safe. It sucks, but I didn’t want to just walk out on you again. I shouldn’t have done that last time either, so I couldn’t go without telling you.”
My pulse picks up as my breath gets caught in my throat. He’s leaving me again. I don’t want him to go, but I know it’s for the best.
“You’re leaving… right now?” I can’t keep the emotion from my voice.
“I don’t have a choice. He shrugs his shoulders sadly. “I can’t let anyone else get killed because of me.”
We stare at one another, the unsaid things dancing between us. This is the end this time. I want to commit everything about him to memory. This is the hardest goodbye of my life.
I’m not even thinking straight as I wrap my arms around him, and I kiss him. Nothing else matters, least of all rationality. I hold on to him and try to convey my feelings through this one last kiss. I know that I can’t have him as my own forever, but I can have him right now.
The next moment we crash down on the couch together, kissing passionately, with our limbs intertwined. It seems like he wants to commit me to memory as well because his hands are everywhere, touching every part of my flesh that’s exposed. And not just his hands and fingers, but his lips and tongue as well. He’s tasting the perspiration dotted all over me, and judging by the moans flying out of him, he’s just as lost in this moment as I am.
“Oh God, Ted.” He slides downwards, peeling off my clothing as he does. “Ted, that feels so good.” My hands knot up in his hair. “Don’t stop.”
His teeth find my panties and he snaps the waist band causing a squeal to escape. A shiver tears down my spine. He takes advantage of me writhing underneath his touch to slide the under wear down, leaving me burning hot and exposed for him. I’m desperate to feel every part of him. But he isn’t ready to take me just yet. Expertly sliding those gorgeous lips of his further down my body, running his tongue closer to where I’m aching for him. I roll my hips, arch my back, edge myself towards him and he responds. He blows hot air along my slit, making me scream. He isn’t even touching me yet and it already feels incredible. How is it going to be when his mouth connects with me for real?
“Oh, shit!” Holy hell, it feels like heaven. He alternates between plunging his tongue deep inside of me and swirling it around my clit. My heart is pounding, my body pulsing, my breaths panting and desperate. The pleasure is intense, flooding me completely. I’m trembling and shuddering. “Fuck, Ted. Oh my God,”
He’s like a mad man on a mission and I can’t handle it. My fingers wind through his hair as he continues to feast between my thighs.
He grips on to my ass so that I can’t move as he swirls his tongue around me more, picking up the pace as the tension of pleasure starts to take a solid grip on me. I’m stiff as a fucking board, the bliss shattering through me, I’m about to come …
“Fucking hell, oh God, Ted, I… I…” I can’t even form a coherent sentence as the orgasm rockets through my body. I can’t forget that this isn’t just a moment of pleasure, this is us saying goodbye.
“Fuck,” I scream out, shoving him off me. I’m half frustrated, half needing more from him before he’s gone forever. I push him on to the floor and lie him on his back before climbing on top to straddle him.
He tries to rise up to kiss me, press his lips to mine, and much as I want him to, my animalistic instincts take over. I pin him down and grab a condom to roll down over him. I need him sheathed so that I can take him. Even more than ever before because I don’t want to be the woman with a baby to a man on the run. Even if I do love Ted.
“Don’t move, I’m in charge here.”
He does as I command and stays exactly where he is, while I angle myself above him and slide down, taking all of him in. Fuck, he feels just as good as he did last time. Maybe better. He is huge. I press my hand to his chest, controlling the pace that I rock back and forth, fucking him hard. God it feels good to have control Everything might be falling apart around us. But right here, in this moment, no one can stop us.