Would have married her and gave her everything
She said we could never be
I’d give anything to take it all back
I would have told the truth from the very start
But never means never
Time doesn’t rewind
She let me go
Never means never”
The crowd is going crazy all around me, and I feel like I am trapped, unable to move as they all are moving in fast forward.
He sings a few other songs, and I can feel his eyes on me, but I still don’t even dare to glance at him. The music speaks to my soul. He’s good, like really good. A part of me wants to climb up on stage and shove my tongue down his throat. Then the other part of me wants to run away from here as fast as I can and never look back.
Not once did he ever come back for me or try to explain. Kai didn’t fight for me…he let me go too.
“Killing me, Kat
Want you so bad, Kat
Your smile is my number one addiction
Making you laugh is my obsession
You promised me wild horses
Killing me, Kat
Want you so bad, Kat”
Hearing those words, words I have longed to hear for so long, makes my eyes pop open. My skin is on fire as I tremble and shake. Those green eyes that have haunted my every thought are bearing down on me. He looks older now. More like a man. His once smooth baby face now has a goatee and a mustache that almost hides the dimples that own me. He is thicker with more muscle tone defining his tall stature. His hair has grown a bit longer, reaching his chin. My fingers ache to run through his silky strands.
His body is making love to the microphone stand as he moves around the stage, but his eyes never leave mine. His legs wrap around the pole the way they used to get tangled with mine. My thighs clench and my heart aches. Sweat trickles down the small of back…my body remembers every touch…every bite…every lick.
If it were possible for two people to hate fuck with their eyes, that is what Kai and I are doing to each other right now.
I lick my lips, wishing his tongue were touching mine. His hips thrust and dear God, I can almost feel him between my legs. Every fiber of my being needs him to put me out of my misery and just fucking touch me…something…anything.
Dear God, I need him.
I am snapped from my Kai induced trance when Stewart taps my shoulder. I had forgotten he was even here.
“You’re Kai Cooper’s regret, aren’t you? You’re The Suffocation of Katie.” He looks at me expectantly with puppy dog eyes. I can only nod as my eyes fight and claw their way back to Kai Cooper and his hypnotic voice that is taking me prisoner. I briefly hear the words, “I never stood a chance,” muttered from Stewart.
This is why I have denied myself anything Kai Cooper related for the past year. I become so lost in him I forget to breathe, because when we are together I don’t even need air. He is my air.
And then he is gone from the stage. Ripped away from my view.
Chapter 29
That’s it? After a year, he has nothing to say to me? Nothing.
“Come on.” Penny is tugging me forward. The security guard from earlier lifts us over the barricade easily. I am just going through the motions. I am still standing back there feeling as if I am in heaven and hell hearing his voice.