“It’s late.”
“But you’re cold, and I love you.”
I can’t control the smile that spreads over my face. “You love me?”
He rolls his eyes at me and then the weight of his words hit him. I watch as shock rolls over his facial features. His mouth opens and his left eye twitches.
“Are you okay?”
“No. Yes. Maybe. I’ll be back soon.”
He hurries to pull his pants on and doesn’t even bother to wait to leave the room before he gets his shirt on. The front door slams shut, and I jump.
Then it hits me that I didn’t say it back.
Crap.
Killian just told me three words I thought I would never hear leave his mouth, and I questioned him like an idiot. I totally screwed that up. No wonder he was rushing to get out of here. I probably hurt his feelings.
Chapter 35
Killian
I feel like a jerk as I speed away from the apartment that I signed a lease on today with Liri. I had to get out of there. I fucked her without a condom, and I told her that I love her. She looked at me with pure shock and asked me if I truly did as though I was feeding her a line. It pissed me off. I shared the most intimate moment and feelings of my life with her and she looked at me all weird with big eyes as though she didn’t believe me. I guess if I was her though I would have doubts too.
She makes me crazy.
I have to be crazy.
Before Liri I never thought it would be possible to want someone the way I crave her touch. Her presence in my life.
I drive to the nearest twenty-four-hour store and go to the blankets. As I stare at all the choices, I feel overwhelmed. I don’t know what color she wants. They have something with rainbows on it, but it looks like something I would buy for one of my nieces. Not that I would know what they like. I don’t go around my piece of shit brother enough to know anything about them. I don’t even know how old they are. I guess that makes me a shit brother and uncle, but they never send me an invite to their birthday parties. I only get to see photos of them online if I bother to look.
I grab one of those bed in a bag sets and some pillows. Then I go over to the towels and grab a few. Liri can pick out what she wants tomorrow or whenever. These will do for now.
I feel so unprepared to take care of her. There’s not even any food or plates in the cabinets.
By the time I am ready to checkout I have a cart full of household items. I have too much shit to be doing self-checkout and they only have one freaking register open.
“What the hell are you doing with that much shit?”
I turn around and see Liam standing in line behind me. “Picking up a few things for Liri.”
“She get a new place or something?”
“No. Yes. We moved in together.”
Liam cracks up. “Good one.”
“I’m serious.” I start putting the stuff I got up on the conveyor belt.
“You and Liri are going to live together?” He shakes his head. “You—the same guy who told that I shouldn’t move in with the woman I loved and had been in a relationship with for eight months. I don’t get you, man.”
“It’s not for you to understand. I love her.”
“You don’t know what love is.”
“I’m only going to tell you once because you’re my best friend. Don’t involve yourself with my girlfriend.”