Killian,
I will carry you in my heart forever and always. Your love changed me for the better. You taught me a lot about the kind of woman I want to be. You showed me a love I never thought was possible. I’m not ready to wear that ring and you aren’t ready to commit to the promises that come with asking me to. I hope that one day we find our way back to each other and that when that day comes, you’ll ask me again so I can say yes, and I can complete our storybook.
Forever and always, your girl,
Liri
I crumble the note, toss it in the trash, and immediately dig it back out and smooth the page out. I read it again and again.
One day…one day you’ll ask me again…
I’m ready now.
The pizza we made is still sitting on the stove. I grab it and throw it across the room.
It hits the wall with a splat and slides to the floor leaving greasy red and orange streaks.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
I should have never gone to sleep. I never should have told her that I could wait. I can’t wait. I want to be with her now. Her place is here with me not Paris.
I throw on a pair of sweats and a t-shirt. I grab my keys and my phone. I’m going to get her back even if I have to do it with her kicking and screaming. The leather seats of my car are fucking freezing, but I don’t care. I have to find her. I call her phone. “This number is no longer in service.” It has to be a mistake. She wouldn’t do that. Would she?
“You’ve made the biggest mistake of your life.”
“One day you’ll regret it.”
“Fuck me so hard I’ll forget I ever loved you.”
My heart pounds in my chest.
I’m going to find her.
I’ll drag her kicking and screaming straight to the damn altar.
Her mom mentioned a hotel.
I start driving around seeking her car out.
Her haunted blue eyes keep flashing in my mind.
I ruined her.
I ruined us.
I fucked up.
Fucking fuck.
I pull over and lay my head back. Scrubbing my palms over my eyes I try to think. Who else would know where she is? I try Hayley.
“What do you want?”
“Where is she?”
“Like I’d tell you.”
I blow out a breath and bite back the urge to scream at her. “I love her, Hayley.”