Shaking my head, I step out of his arms. “I’m meeting Grady right now, him and I need to talk, I’ll talk to you later.” I don’t even realize what I’m doing but Mateo’s eyes turn cold.
“That his for sure?” he growls at me, and I realize I was rubbing my small baby bump.
“Mateo, please, just go away right now,” I beg him.
He jerks his chin. “Fine, but we’ll be talking soon too. I’m not giving up, and I’ll be damned if some Prospect takes what’s mine.” He slams his mouth on mine, kissing me with such passion then quickly and storms away.
Oh for fuck sake, I’m so sick of everyone saying I’m theirs. I’m no ones. I’m mine. I wish everyone would back off.
Chapter 29
Grady
I take Nikki back to her condo and see her inside safely. “You finally ready to have this conversation.”
Nikki chews on her bottom lip. “Honestly, no, but I know we need to talk about things. About us. This baby. About…” she trails off and leaves that last part on the tip of her tongue, but I brush it off for now.
“Listen, I know how we got together wasn’t ideal or very fuckin’ romantic but it was real. My feelings for you are real. I want to make you my Old Lady once I’ve earned my cut. You’re having my baby and I care about you.”
She folds her arms across her chest. “What about Susan?”
“What about that cunt?”
“She’s been living with you.”
“Only because the bitch came over one night and never left. Not because I loved her. Cunt was convenient pussy when I wanted it and she kept my place clean. She didn’t mean shit to me.”
“Are you saying you love me, Grady, because you don’t even know me like that. All we have between us is an unexpected pregnancy and sex.”
“That may be how we got our start, but it won’t be our story, Nikki.” Her expression softens at my words.
“That was actually really sweet.”
“I’m only sweet for you. Don’t be telling nobody though. Got my reputation to protect.” I grin at her and she shakes her head. Grabbing her wrists, I pull her into me, wrapping my arms around her, then kissing her forehead.
“This talk isn’t finished. There’s things I need to figure out…I like you and I do want to explore being with you but growing up, there was one man I loved.” My jaw ticks and I grind my teeth hearing her talk about another dude. “He was my world. I thought he would be my one true love. Then he broke my heart and I ran into the arms of that bastard, Tricky, thinking he would be my savior. Only he was a monster of the worst possible kind b
ut now I’m back and that love hasn’t gone away. I still love Mateo Cruiz, and I know this isn’t what you want to hear, but I don’t want to choose between you.”
“What the fuck are you saying? You’re in love with both of us? So what I am supposed to just be okay with sharing you with Cruiz? The fuck, Nikki?” Cruiz must have hurt Nikki by fucking it up with Susan, I remember when he was trying to warn me off her months ago, thought he was just being a prick.
She shrugs. “I’m being honest. I care about both of you. You’re the father of my baby but he’s my first love. Don’t make me choose.”
“We gonna just rotate nights or a is this a threesome. You want double dick is that it?” I get in her face. “Want me in your pussy and him in your ass, Nikki? That the fantasy you have in your head?” I grab her by the back of her hair and tilt her head back. “I don’t like the thought of sharing you with that fucker but if that is what you are asking me to do, I’d do it for you.”
Her eyes widen. “You’d break your rules for me?”
“I’d do anything for you, baby. Told you that and I meant it.” I kiss her lips, pushing my tongue in her mouth, tasting her strawberry flavored lip balm. I break away. “Let’s get one thing straight though. I don’t do dudes. Won’t be no dick rubbing, sucking, or fucking, going down. If he so much as looks at my dick funny, I’ll cut his nuts off.”
She laughs. “Now there’s a picture.”
I growl. “Don’t be dreaming about it either but I bet that shit turns you on doesn’t it?”
She grabs my hand and presses it to her panties under her dress. She’s fucking soaked.
“Nikki,” I warn. “That will never happen.” I pull her panties to the side and thrust a finger inside her. “You’ll never break me like that.”
“We’ll see,” she pants against my mouth as I finger fuck her tight cunt, sliding my digits through her heat.