Chapter One
Chess Somers didn’t think her life could get any worse. She assumed that once you hit rock bottom, the only direction left was up. And over the last few months, it was the one thought that kept her sane. The one thought that gave her hope. Because she could handle this life to some degree. If going through the motions and not living was handling things.
It turned out she was wrong, because things could be a hell of a lot worse.
It had nothing to do with the fact she’d been kicked out of a car about a mile from Crystal Lake in the middle of a snow squall, in heels no less, and everything to do with the rip down the front of her dress, the bruises on her swollen cheek and arms, not to mention the split lip and fifty-dollar bill clutched in her frozen fingers.
She stared down at the bill and felt hot tears prick the corners of her eyes. Don’t cry, she thought. Don’t be that pathetic woman.
But she was pathetic. Who the hell was she kidding? And if she didn’t move her butt, she’d freeze to death out here, and no one would find her until the spring thaw. Teeth clattering like ice pellets against glass, she pulled her wool jacket tighter and began to walk. Head down, she decided not to think about the biting cold or the fact that she’d been out in the elements for less than five minutes and couldn’t feel her toes. One foot in front of the other. Keep it simple and focus. That’s all she needed to do for now.
And that’s what she did until she saw the lights of the motel slicing through the snow and darkness. She hit a patch of ice and went down on one knee, swearing and crying as she struggled to right herself.
By the time she reached the motel, her cheeks were streaked with tears and blood, some of it frozen tight against her skin, and her knee throbbed something fierce. She limped forward, past the vehicles in the parking lot and the office where Jerry, the overly large, overly friendly, overly creepy desk clerk was on duty.
One step in front of the other. Keep going. You’ll make it. The thoughts were like a mantra.
Somewhere, she heard music, the melody familiar, though the song was just out of reach. She made her way across the parking lot to the other side and found herself humming the tune, smiling sadly when she realized what it was—“Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer.” When she reached the door to room number twenty-nine, it was still on her lips.
Chess shivered so violently, she had a hard time grasping the door handle, but when she finally managed to hold on and turn it, the damn thing wouldn’t open. She yanked on it and swore, rattling it hard as a fresh batch of tears rolled down the already frozen river on her face.
Light fell from the window, and she tried to peer inside, but the curtains were drawn nearly shut, allowing only a small sliver for the light to pass. Her mother was either passed out, which meant she wouldn’t wake up until she was good and ready, or she’d gone somewhere to drink, which meant Chess might not see her for days. Weeks even.
Shit.
She’d left her clutch in the back seat of the car, along with a tube of lip gloss and her cell phone and the key to her room. Chess rested her forehead against the door and tried to think. Just think. She needed to get inside, and there had to be another way in. Then it hit her: Jerry! He’d have another key.
She turned quickly, wincing at the fire that shot up from her toes, and kept her head down against the whistling wind as she headed for the office. The neon sign that flashed VACANCIES cast a dim shadow, and Chess pushed her way inside, grateful for the warmth that hit her. Tinsel was strung here and there with no rhyme or reason, while the saddest Christmas tree ever leaned to the left beside the window. Presents sat underneath it, the dust on them so thick, you could write your name on the faded paper.
“Looks like the beauty queen had quite the night.”
Chess jerked up her head and spied Jerry sitting behind the desk, a half-eaten burger and fries on the counter. Grease dripped from the corner of his mouth, leaving splotches on his considerable chest, and the smell was so strong, it turned her stomach.
“I…” She had to take a moment and get her chaotic thoughts in order. It was hard, though—she was so cold and in pain and confused and… Think.
She tugged the edges of her coat together, aware that Jerry’s eyes were on her nearly exposed breasts.
“I lost my key,” she managed to say coherently, a miracle considering the violent shivers that racked her body.
“Did you now.” Jerry stood and peered over his desk, a slow, malicious smile turning up the corners of his mouth.
Chess could only nod. The air changed, thick with something dark, as if all the light had left. Her body told her to flee, some primal instinct that shrieked inside like a banshee, but her feet felt like they were stuck in cement. She had nothing left and whimpered like a hunted animal.
“Can I please have the spare?” She attempted a smile, but her face felt like it was about to shatter into a million pieces.
“Your mother asked for it last week.” His smile was bigger. Darker. Meaner.
“Oh.” Confused, she could only look up at him. “Please, if you don’t have another spare, you must have a master key to let me in.”
“You don’t remember me, do you?” His voice was flat as he leaned his palms on the counter, his expression ugly. “We went to high school together.”
She could only shake her head and mouth no, unsure if he heard.
“You were such a bitch. Wouldn’t give me the time of day. I was just the fat guy with bad skin.” He leaned closer. “Now I got you begging for a damn key to the motel room you call home.” He snorted. “Karma’s a bitch, ain’t she?”
“I guess,” she replied, her voice small and barely audible.
“You guess?” He laughed and then stopped abruptly. His expression changed. It was subtle, but that damn internal instinct inside her exploded. She was in danger. Again.
“Tell you what,” he said, moving so he could step around the counter until he was a few feet from her. “You do something for me, and I’ll see if I can find another spare key.” His hands slowly went for the zipper on his jeans, and his dark smile made Chess nauseous. She took a step back.
“It’s cold out there.” His grin was nearly her undoing. “And you look like you’ve already been worked over real good.”
“Please,” she said again, desperate.
Jerry nodded toward the space behind the counter. “Guess you’ve got a choice to make.”