2X The Heat (2X The Pleasure 1)

thought it would be. I fell into a rhythm with my team almost immediately. We were seamless. Every mission we went on was a success. Even the ones that weren’t, we still all made it out in one piece. Things only went south at the very end. I loved it until then. That last mission… I don’t know if I’ll ever get past it.”

Piper reached over and took my hand. I could tell it was an instinct, something she did without thinking. When she realized what she’d done, she cleared her throat and tried to pull her hand away. I held onto it tightly.

“Piper,” I began. “I’m sorry.”

“For what?” she asked.

“The way I left,” I said quickly. “I never took the time to realize how that made you feel. I was just so excited to finally be a SEAL that it made me selfish. I just assumed you would understand and that was wrong of me. I thought you knew how I felt about you, but I was wrong. I never meant for that to be the end for us. I should have told you that back then. I’m so sorry I didn’t.”

“It’s okay,” Piper said weakly. “You don’t have to apologize. It’s been so long. It’s all in the past.”

“That doesn’t matter,” I said, gripping her hand even tighter. “I need you to know how sorry I am for hurting you. I shouldn’t have left without making absolutely sure you knew how I felt. I fucked up.”

“We all do that,” Piper mumbled with a shrug. “I shouldn’t have gone off on you like I did yesterday. You didn’t deserve that.”

“I did,” I said with self-deprecating laugh. “If you ask your sister, I deserve a lot worse.”

“Audra?” Piper frowned. “What did she say to you?”

“She told me I broke your heart,” I said.

Piper rolled her eyes and ducked her head down in embarrassment. I saw her cheeks flush red and I wanted to trace my fingers down them. I wanted to feel the heat beneath my fingers and press my lips against hers.

“She shouldn’t have said anything,” Piper said finally. She pulled her hand out of mine and tucked her hair behind her ears. “I’ve just been through a lot since you left. A lot has changed…”

Piper trailed off, glancing into the distance. At first, I thought she was angry again, but when I saw the tears glistening in her eyes I knew she was reliving something really painful.

“What happened?” I asked gently. “I want to know, Piper. I really do.”

“I know you do,” Piper smiled. “But I’m not sure I’m ready to tell you yet.”

“That’s okay,” I nodded. “I’m just happy you’re talking to me again. I really wasn’t sure if you ever would.”

“I shouldn’t have ignored your phone calls.” Piper said suddenly. “Or your letters. That was wrong of me.”

“I understand,” I shrugged. “You needed time.”

“I did,” Piper nodded. “But I think I was just trying to punish you for leaving. Audra shouldn’t have said anything, but she was right. When you left it tore my world apart, Logan. I’m not proud of that, but it’s the truth. I was a wreck.”

“So was I,” I breathed.

“Oh please,” Piper scoffed. “You were running off to chase your lifelong dream.”

“That doesn’t mean I didn’t miss you.”

At my words, Piper looked away and took a bite of her scone. She licked the icing off her fingers and my stomach tightened. I had missed her. More than even I realized. Sitting beside her solidified everything I felt all those years ago. My heart ached for her. My body longed to touch hers. Nothing had changed between us. Our connection was still just as strong as ever. It took every ounce of strength I possessed not to kiss her right then.

I slid closer to her on the bench, slowly reaching for her hand again, but she pulled it away quickly.

“Logan,” she said sadly. “Don’t. It’s too soon.”

“I’m sorry,” I said quickly. I moved away from her again and breathed deeply. I didn’t want to push her away again. I just wanted to spend as much time with her as possible before she left town.

“It’s not because I don’t want to,” Piper assured me. “It’s just… so much has happened and…”

“And I messed up,” I nodded. “I know.”

Piper took another bite of her scone and looked away. It felt like she was hiding something from me, but I didn’t push. She would tell me when she was ready.