Serve Me

“No! Wait! I’m right here!”

And it shouldn’t have shocked me one bit when I saw Flynn in the driveway.

“Are you fucking kidding me, Flynn!?” I shrieked.

“I’ll take you to the airport,” he murmured.

“Like hell, you will. You’ve been trying to postpone me all damn day: taking too long to get to and from the doctor’s, throwing my shit in the washer, and now you’re getting rid of my cab!”

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He walked over to my bag and grabbed it. He heaved it into the back of his truck and then slid into the driver’s side seat. I didn’t know what the hell his angle was, but I was tired of it. The more he acted this way, the more it showed me the truth of the conversation we had a few days ago that pissed him the fuck off.

The more I realized why I hadn’t originally told him about Paris.

He swung the passenger side door open for me, and I rolled my eyes. I didn’t have much of a choice now with my flight leaving in less than two hours, so I climbed into his truck, and he cranked it up. The silence between us hung heavy in the air the entire time, and all I wanted to do was melt directly into the chair. On the one hand, I could see how this would be hard for him. I could understand why he’d be so reluctant to drop me off at the airport with things sitting with us the way they were. The last time we were together-- really together--, he admitted that he’d never stopped loving me.

And I’d said those words in return.

But, the truth was you didn’t treat someone you loved like this. You didn’t storm out on an argument and then give them the cold shoulder for days. You didn’t try everything in your power to stop the inevitable from happening. Sure, he wanted to talk over lunch that day about making things work long distance. And sure, he didn’t even know what that long distance meant at the time… but dear God did he really expect me to do it now!?

We pulled into the airport parking lot, and I promptly got out. I was already trying to pull my bag out of the back just as he was stepping out of his truck, and he reached his arm easily over me and pulled it out without a problem.

“You takin’ home my gravel or somethin’?” Flynn quipped.

“Nope. Just trying to get home,” I sighed.

There was a heavy silence that hung between us, and I knew that statement hurt him. But dear god, Oklahoma hadn’t been home in five years. And honestly? There wasn’t really ever a point where it truly felt like home. Yeah, it was familiar, and yeah, I fell in love with my country boy while I was in college here, but Paris had welcomed me with open arms, forced me to grow up, and loved me even in my dirtiest of downfalls. It never once screamed at me without a good reason and it never once shooed away my taxis that I needed when I needed them the most.

“Well, hope ya have a good flight,” Flynn murmured.

“I’m sure I will.”

I grabbed my suitcase and wheeled myself into the airport, and that was that. I wanted him to be happy for me, I really did. I wanted him to be as excited about this as I was. I wanted him to understand that Paris was my dream and that I’d achieved my dream at twenty years old! I had been hired as a premier apprentice in Paris before I could even legally drink in the States! God, that was a hell of a shocker when I got to France. I could remember the first night I’d ever gotten slammed drunk. I was with a few other apprentices, and we were at this fancy wine bar spending half our first paychecks on glasses of wine I found out later we could’ve gotten in a grocery for 1/4th the price! We ended up dropping $800 between the five of us, and we all piled into a taxi van, and then we had an argument as to whose place was bigger so we could all crash and vomit in one place.

God, that was the best memory. And it’s a memory I wanted to share with Flynn.

But I couldn’t because he had licked his wounds for days, and now it was time for me to leave.

To go home.

I wished he could just be happy for me. Doesn’t he understand that this is why I didn’t tell him? My heart screamed out to have him there. I wanted him to walk with me up to security until they made him abandon me because he didn’t have a ticket. I wanted to stand in his arms until the very last second. I wanted him to force me to sprint across the airport because he had to have me in the back of his truck one last time before we parted ways.

Damn it, I just wanted him to be supportive. To love me the way he proclaimed and to be happy for me.

And he was just sulking in his truck.

I went and got my ticket before I checked my luggage onto the plane. The bag was way too stuffed to take on the plane with me, so I chucked out the extra money so I wouldn’t have to try and convince the stewardess that it would fit if I shoved hard enough. I sighed and turned around to take one last look at Oklahoma through the airport windows.

But instead, I saw Flynn standing there.

I watched him walk toward me, and I was rooted to my space. Someone shoved me out of the way so they could get to the desk and all Flynn did was reach his arm out to catch me.

“Hey,” he said sternly, “this woman’s just getting over a concussion. Have some decency.”

There he was.

There was my Flynn.