The best sleep of my life was only slightly interrupted, but it only made it better, until it wasn’t.
Alex just felt so good against my body. And he smelled so fucking amazing. His
stark cologne and natural, masculine scent flooded my nostrils and went right to every nerve in me. He was innocently touching me, yet my nipples were hard, and my sex was moistening and clenching. I wanted him so badly, yet I was in a deep sleep. He had so much of an effect on me it was ridiculous.
Even my dreams were more peaceful. I felt pretty much the same with Max; that safety and security. But it was still odd for me to be thinking about more than one man that way. I could still feel Max inside me. His cock was so thick, stretching me in ways I couldn’t even imagine. Hell, I still felt a pulsing inside me and the moisture of his seed. I wanted him again and again; it was maddening.
But I wanted Alex too. If I wasn’t so damned tired, I thought I would have made a move. I knew he wanted me too, because I felt his cock semi-hard against my thigh that I laid over him. Snuggling up next to him made me feel safe, and he wasn’t even doing anything. They all made me feel safe, and that was more important than anything.
Then like all things, something swept in and ruined it.
All the tension and the stress jut welled up inside me and I couldn’t control it.
It wasn’t good to keep things bottled up, because then they would come out at once, which they did. I didn’t mean to go off on Alex at all, it just kind of happened. Though everything I said was true. I just thought I could keep it more contained for a little while longer.
At the end of the day, I knew they just wanted to do what was best for me. They did so much for me already and I felt bad for even expecting more. Still, I wanted honesty from them. That was the most basic thing in any relationship, though it was hard to even think of us that way. I didn’t know what to do with all my feelings for them or our involvement. Nate was the only one I hadn’t been with, yet I still had strong enough feelings for him as I did Alex and Max.
All these things were running through my head and I just couldn’t take it.
To top it off, I was walking into another shit hole.
The police station looked much different than it did the first day I came. That day, I had no idea what I was walking into. If I could go back, I liked to think I wouldn’t make the statement, but I knew I still would have. I couldn’t have lived my life the same way ever again. Even with all of those things piling on, I was still glad that I told the truth. That I called the police and got help. I was glad I did something right, even when it was really hard.
It was all my father ever taught me to do. And I knew he would be proud of me.
I didn’t talk about him much because it was just too hard. He had always been a loyal soldier. Even when he was away, and I had to live alone, he was there for me. And when he was around, things were even better. He was a good father, and we both knew each other very well. When he went on his last tour, it was supposed to be his last before he was discharged. He would come home and then we could have a perfect life together. He thought about being a cop to pass the time, but he didn’t really need to. Passing all the men in uniform made me think of that. Needless to say, he wasn’t supposed to be killed in action. I didn’t even get to go to the funeral because according to official records, he never died. I never got to see him again. When I thought of walking out the door and running from the whole case, I thought of how he never ran from anything. Not even a fucking loaded grenade.
“Rose? You okay?” Alex touched my arm gently and brought me back to earth.
“Yeah.” I feigned a smile. “I’m fine.” I hoped I was convincing enough.
“Okay. It’s just through here.” He had his hand on the small of my back as he led me through the back of the station, and down a narrow hallway that ended with four doors.
It kind of looked just like the movies, with the people running around and the one-way glass. I shivered, and Alex held me close, thinking I was cold. Even though I wasn’t, I didn’t move away. I sort of needed him to keep me grounded. I wanted to keep a strong face on to keep them calm. The last thing they needed to do was worry about me, too.
“Nate is bringing him in from holding now. So, it shouldn’t be long.” Alex rubbed my arm softly.
I nodded in response.
“Okay. What do I have to do?” I asked him. I didn’t want to try and assume anything, and I hoped he wouldn’t think I wasn’t up for it.
“There will be a lineup of six guys here.” He pointed to the empty room with black, horizontal lines on the wall. It had height markings on the sides, and the wall was so dirty it wasn’t even white anymore. It could have been an egg wash brown.
“And then you just pick him out if you know it’s him. You won’t know which one we brought in, and if you’re sure it isn’t any of them, that’s okay too,” he told me calmly.
His eyes were deep and soulful as they bored into mine. And if I wasn’t in a police station, it would have aroused me. Though honestly, I could be aroused anywhere if it had to do with him. Even without the suit on, he just looked so dapper and handsome. I loved the way his hair fell to the side, and the lines of his face were hard yet soft at the same time. He had the jawline worthy of any sculpture, and lips I could taste for hours, though it had been so long since I had. I just thought fuck it and stood on my tiptoes to give him a quick peck. It was nothing special, and there was barely any tongue involved. Just the softness of our lips moving against each other for five seconds.
“I’m nervous.” I rested my head under his chin. I felt him nod as he rubbed my back soothingly.
“I know. You’ll be fine. They can’t see you, and we’re going to keep protecting you for as long as this case is still open.” He pulled back and looked at me, like he was studying me for any cracks in my resolve. They wouldn’t be hard to find.
“I wish you guys could have your lives back. Watching me all the time has to be boring.” I took a step back just to breathe again. He was too fucking distracting. His scent, his wide muscles, his…just his aura in general was maddening.
He laughed aloud and shook his head. “We didn’t have much of a life before. And watching you is not boring, I promise.” He gave me a once over that made me tingle in the most sensual way, even though we were in a precinct. I knew it.
He dropped his gaze and took his phone from his pocket, though I didn’t even hear it go off. He read the screen and tapped off a quick response before putting it back.
“They’re coming in.”