“Down, Kellan.”
Damien swept into the room, appearing from I had no clue where, and I didn’t care because my demon had not been satisfied. I wanted to demolish this human in the most glorious and bloody way. I wanted to feel his blood dripping from my hands—
“Okay.”
Shay’s voice in my head stopped my thoughts cold.
“Calm down,” she added, touching my bicep.
Damien stood between his fraternity brother and me. He didn’t say a word.
I was on the edge, teetering there.
If I fell, I’d take everyone with me I could—all souls.
I’d never been this much on edge, ever.
“Something is wrong with me.”
Damien grunted. “You think?”
“He has this new bloodthirst. I noticed it before his dad summoned him—”
“HIS DAD SUMMONED HIM?”
I shared a look with Shay. Had we not shared that with him? I guessed from his bulging eyes that we had not.
Both Damien and Shay were in my head, but I shoved them out. “I need space.”
I felt Shay’s hurt gasp. This was becoming a pattern, but I couldn’t do anything about it.
I wanted to hurt.
I wanted to maim.
I wanted to destroy.
I wanted to bring the Underworld here, and I wanted to start with this fucking fraternity party.
I tore through the house, going straight for the liquor. The ants moved aside for me, like the parting of the sea. The females liked to look at me. It was always like that—in high school, at college. Some were braver than others, trying to approach me. The males usually had better instincts, staying way the fuck away from me. But they all scattered for me today.
Alcohol did nothing to me, not usually. A demon could get drunk or high from a kill or sex, but that was mostly it. Still, I was going to try.
Shay had been right. My bloodthirst was greater, but it wasn’t sudden. It’d been rising in me for a while. There’d been a jolt, electrifying it.
It had grown and grown, and now, it was almost out of control.
I can’t trust myself around Shay.
No. That wasn’t right.
Shay was the only one I could trust myself around.
I frowned, pulling back that thought. I brought it front and center, examining it.
That wasn’t my thought.
The realization stunned me.
Someone else was in my head, but they were making my thoughts sound and feel as if they were mine.
“Who are you?” I roared into the cavern of my mind.
A giggle. That was the response.
It sounded like a child’s laugh, a sick and evil child—like a six-year-old torturing an animal and loving it.
“Get out. Now,” I commanded, and I felt the voice leave my head.
“Show yourself,” I spoke aloud in Angelic tongue. All beings had to follow a summons from that language, but so few knew how to speak it.
“You know my language.”
I scowled, stepping back and bringing up my offenses. This was the Messenger.
“You’re here for the prophecy.” I sneered. “I can feel the shame emanating from you. It’s loathsome.”
He was near the back, in the shadows. He hadn’t fully corporealized himself.
He was quiet.
I could feel him studying me.
I frowned. Something was wrong.
“How long have you been in my head?”
He jerked, his misty form spreading out before coming back together and firming. Finally, he spoke in hisses, “I’ve been with you since the beginning of time.”
The fuck? “What?”
“I can see your father’s been spreading tales. You should know better than to believe him.”
“I sensed his honesty.”
“I’ve always been with you, Kellan. I am you. I was with you when you went to him, but he drew you across the boundary. He knew I would separate, could separate from you.”
“The prophecy was about a fallen Messenger. The last messenger I battled put up more of a show, to be honest.”
“I am no messenger,” he hissed. “I am you. I am your darkness.”
“I’m a full demon. The only good in me is Shay’s bond.”
“That’s not true. You have layers of us, and you have neglected us over the years. You have remained topside, falling in love with a half-messenger. Your demon is coming apart.”
“You said you were able to separate when I went across the boundary?”
“Each time you do, more of us are able to separate from you.”
I wasn’t going to waste my time wondering what truth my father had been speaking. I shouldn’t have been surprised he used deception. That was his job.
“Why would my father want you to separate from me?”
“Because he can call upon us. We are still leashed to you. We are a part of you, but he can call on us to do his bidding.”
Well.
Shit.
“I’ve been called to destroy your half-messenger,” he announced. “The prophecy wasn’t that a fallen messenger would destroy her. It was that you would destroy her. I’m here to fulfill the prophecy.”
SHAY
Crowman was showing me the fraternity’s collection of Christmas trees. The first tree had been a gigantic inflatable tree. The second was an inflatable snowman. It had scarves wrapped around it, a star on the top, and beer kegs at the bottom to act as a base.