Sin City Baby

“How you holding up?” Nicole asked.

“It’s hard, going and seeing Bradley’s mom. He looked so much like her,” I said.

“It’s good for Lily to have a relationship with them, though.”

“I’d never keep her from them, Nikki. They’re family, and they adore Lily.”

“But I know it’s not easy on you. I wanna make sure you’re okay,” she said.

“Thanks. I appreciate it. But shouldn't you be at work?”

“Eh, figured I could use a day off. Tuesdays are my slowest days anyway. I wanted to make sure you guys got back in okay.”

“I love you,” I said. “You know that?”

“I know. Which is why we’re having wine tonight. Got it chilling in the fridge.”

“You're the best.”

I heard a door slam open, and I whipped my head around. My nosey neighbor was charging out of her house and making her way to mine. I furrowed my brow in confusion as her eyes swept over my car. I watched her nose crinkle almost in disgust, and part of me wanted to slap her.

Yes, my car was old. Yes, it was rusting on the undercarriage. But it was all I could afford after selling off everything to try and pay down as much of the mortgage on our house as I could.

When Bradley died, I had to take any job I could. Nicole hired me as a part-time employee until I could find something better, but no one wanted to hire a full-time mom with no work experience for any full-time position in this town. I sold off all I could, bought the cheapest car I trusted to haul my daughter around, and then threw everything else at our debt.

I knocked out most of it, but I still had forty thousand left on our mortgage to get rid of.

“Welcome back,” said the neighbor.

“Thank you,” I said.

“How was the drive?”

“It was fine.”

“In that car?” she asked.

“Yes. It gets me from point A to B safely. That’s all I can ask for.”

“Where’d you guys head off to?”

None of your damn business.

“Lily’s grandmother’s place.”

“Your mother or in-laws?” she asked.

“My in-laws. Technically.”

“You separated or something? I can sympathize. I’ve been separated twice.”

I looked over at Nicole, and she held her hands up. I watched her backtrack onto the porch and catch Lily just as she was heading out the door.

Nicole was trying to convince Lily to go inside with her so they could start cooking dinner, which I knew would result in Nicole simply ordering pizza.

“Or something,” I said.

I watched my neighbor nod her head as she took one last look at my car. She was new to the neighborhood. At least, new to me. I grew up here. My life with Bradley bounced me around to all sorts of places around the country.