‘It’s okay.’ Trinity fought to quickly compose herself and smiled into his curious eyes as he patted her cheek. ‘I’m fine.’
Trinity had no choice but to be fine.
She just missed her baby so.
Ached for the time that her daughter had never had.
‘Thanks so much.’ Harry’s mum was back and Trinity handed him to her but the bubble of panic was rising inside her and Trinity truly did not know if she could get through today.
She pressed her bell.
‘Breakfast won’t be a moment.’ The steward smiled.
‘I’d like a bourbon, please,’ Trinity said. ‘A large one.’
A few minutes later the steward returned with two tiny bottles of bourbon and a pussycat smile that told Trinity she was a lush.
Trinity didn’t care.
At least it calmed her enough to get off the plane.
* * *
‘Where the hell is Trinity?’ Donald demanded, as he clicked off his phone. ‘Yvette’s in tears, there’s not a sign of her at the hotel...’
Here we go again! Zahid thought as he felt the pull of the mad Fosters’ vortex. A night out last night with Donald and co. and Zahid was remembering all too well why he chose only minimal contact. Gus had kept insisting that Zahid extend his visit, or come and stay later in the year, and Zahid had reluctantly explained that he would be marrying soon and his time was now to be spent in Ishla.
And now, it would seem, Trinity had gone missing in action again.
Nothing changed.
‘Why don’t I call Dianne and see if there’s an update?’ Zahid suggested, for it was the best man’s duty to keep the groom calm, but he had never seen Donald so tense. He made the call and then gave Donald the news. ‘Your mother’s at the airport and she says Trinity’s plane just landed. As soon as she is through customs, she will take her straight to the hotel and help her to get ready. Call Yvette and tell her that she can stop worrying.’
‘You can never stop worrying when Trinity’s around!’ Donald challenged. ‘I just hope she’s sober.’
It wasn’t Donald’s comment that had a certain disquiet stir in Zahid. It was his reaction to the news that Trinity had landed and that soon he would see her again.
Over the years there had been a few near misses. Zahid, when he had heard Trinity’s plane was delayed, had assumed that this would be another. But that she was in the same country now brought a strange sense of calm—the planets seemed more neatly aligned, the stars just a little less random. They were in the same country and finally, after all this time, they would see each other again.
He wondered if she would be bringing someone and briefly wrestled with the distaste of that thought but then dismissed its significance. It had nothing to do with feelings, Zahid quickly told himself. After all, it was possibly his last weekend in England as a single man and certainly there was unfinished business between them. It was natural to be hoping that she was attending the wedding alone.
* * *
Trinity didn’t have to wait for baggage and she raced out of customs, her heart aflutter. Despite everything, she was looking forward to seeing her mum. Maybe things would be different now, Trinity hoped as her eyes scanned the crowd for Dianne. Maybe her mum would realise just how difficult today was. Maybe...
Her heart lurched in hope as she saw her mum, dressed for the wedding, just minus a hat. Trinity raced over and gave her a hug. ‘I’m so sorry.’
‘Have you been drinking?’ was Dianne’s only response to her daughter’s kiss.
‘I had one bourbon on the plane.’
‘It’s whisky,’ Dianne hissed. ‘You’re in England now. Where the hell have you been?’
‘The plane was delayed.’
‘I don’t want to hear your excuses.’
Trinity could feel her mother’s fingers digging into her arms as they raced to get a taxi and Dianne didn’t let up as they sped to the hotel. ‘Yvette is in tears. She wanted her own sister to be bridesmaid and now you’ve made us look...’ Dianne struggled to contain her temper. It had taken many, many dinners to convince Yvette’s parents to choose Trinity for the role, but a generous helping hand towards the wedding bill had given them leverage and the Fosters had insisted that their voice be heard.
Oh, and so too would Trinity’s voice be heard, Dianne remembered. She just had to tell Trinity that! ‘I’ve told Yvette that you’re going to sing near the end of the night.’
‘Excuse me.’ Trinity’s mouth was agape. ‘I can’t sing.’
‘You’ve got a beautiful voice.’
‘Actually, I don’t.’ Trinity could not believe that they’d ask this of her. ‘Mum, please, I don’t want to sing, I just want to...’
Hide.
‘When do you go back?’ Dianne asked.
‘Tomorrow afternoon.’
‘So it really is a flying visit, then.’
‘I’ve got an interview next week.’
‘If you’d let your father help, you wouldn’t be out of work.’
‘I’m not out of work,’ Trinity bristled, because she had a job at the beach bar and she certainly earned her money there, but Dianne pulled a face.
‘If anyone asks, say...’ Dianne thought for a moment. ‘Say you’re working in a museum.’
‘You want me to lie?’
‘Yes, please!’ Dianne said. ‘We didn’t put you through an art history degree to have you working in a bar.’
‘Ancient art,’ Trinity corrected, and then smirked at her mum. ‘What sort of museum exactly?’ She watched as her mother’s neck went red.
‘Okay, a library, then. The reference section. At one of the big colleges.’
Nothing changed.
They got to the hotel and the shoebox of a room that had been booked for Trinity. After a lightning-quick shower she sat as her hair was brushed and coiled and pinned by her tense mother while Trinity quickly did her make-up. Moods weren’t improved when her mother unzipped a bag and pulled out the most awful blue dress that Trinity had ever seen.
‘You are joking?’ Trinity said. ‘It’s so shiny I’m going to need sunglasses to wear it.’
‘Had you bothered to come to any of the fittings then you might have had a say in what you were wearing. As it is...’ She lifted up Trinity’s arm and attempted to pull up the concealed zip that was located at the side. ‘You’ve put on weight!’ Dianne accused.
‘No,’ Trinity said. ‘I gave you my measurements exactly.’
‘Then why can’t I do it up?’
Because you refused to believe I was ten pounds heavier than your goal weight for me, Trinity thought, but said nothing, just sucked in her stomach and chest as her mother tugged at the stupid zip until finally it was up.
‘Is breathing an optional extra?’ Trinity quipped.
‘Yes,’ Dianne snapped back. ‘But smiling isn’t. This is your brother’s day.’
‘Oh, funny, that, I thought it was Yvette’s.’
‘Trinity!’ Dianne was struggling to hold onto her temper. ‘Don’t start.’
‘I’m not starting anything, I was just saying...’
‘Well, don’t!’ Dianne warned. ‘You’ve already done your level best to ruin this day. All you have to do now is smile. Can you manage that?’’
‘Of course, but I’m not singing.’
‘And lose the smart mouth.’ Dianne secured her hat as she issued instructions. ‘Go now and apologise to Yvette. I’m going to make my way to the church. I’ll see you there and I’m warning you...’
‘Noted.’
‘I mean it, Trinity, I don’t want a scene from you today.’
She should say nothing, Trinity knew that. She should just nod and reassure her mum that she’d behave, but, hell, she had a voice and as much as her parents loathed that fact, Trinity was determined to find it.
‘Then just make sure I’m not put in any position where I might need to make a scene,’ Trinity said, and her mother’s silk-clad shoulders stiffened and Trinity watched as the feather sticking out of Dianne’s hat shivered in anger as Trinity refused to comply with orders.
‘Will you just...?’ Dianne hissed, and turned around. ‘Can you try and remember that this is your brother’s wedding and not spoil a family gathering for once.’ Her face was right up at Trinity’s. ‘For once can today not be about you?’
‘Of course.’ Trinity stared back coolly but her heart was hammering in her chest. ‘Just make sure that you keep that sleaze well away from me.’
‘Are you still going on about that? It was years ago...’ Two champagnes on an empty stomach that was fluttering with mother-of-the-groom nerves and Dianne would not be argued with, and certainly she wanted nothing to spoil what had to be a perfect day. ‘You will behave, Trinity, you will be polite and you will smile.’
It had been stupid to hope things might be different.
Nothing had changed, Trinity realised.
Nothing ever would.
‘What are you doing?’ Trinity asked, as she watched her mother’s painfully slow attempt to write a text. ‘I’ll do it.’
‘It’s done,’ Dianne said, as her phone made the small whooshing sound that meant her text had been sent. ‘I was just letting Zahid know that you’re on your way to Yvette and that everything’s back on schedule.’