nership, a relatively minor one, with Towers. With Metcalf, the intimate side of their relationship has been over for quite some time.”
“Yet you feel the need to defend him to me.”
“I’m not defending him,” Eve snapped. “I’m stating facts. Roarke’s more than capable of defending himself.”
“Undoubtedly. He’s a strong, vital, and clever man. Still, you worry for him.”
“In your professional opinion, is Roarke the killer?”
“Absolutely not. I have no doubt that were I to analyze him, I would find his killer instinct well developed.” The fact was, Mira would have loved the opportunity to study Roarke’s mind. “But his motive would have to be very defined. Great love or great hate. I doubt there is much else that would push him over the line. Relax, Eve,” Mira said quietly. “You’re not in love with a murderer.”
“I’m not in love with anyone. And my personal feelings aren’t at issue here.”
“On the contrary, the investigator’s state of mind is always an issue. And, if I’m required to give my opinion on yours, I’ll have to say I found you near exhaustion, emotionally torn, and deeply troubled.”
Eve picked up the profile disc and rose. “Then it’s fortunate you’re not going to be required to give your opinion. I’m perfectly capable of doing my job.”
“I don’t doubt it for a moment. But at what cost to yourself?”
“The cost would be higher if I didn’t do it. I’m going to find who killed these women. Then it’ll be up to someone like Cicely Towers to put them away.” Eve tucked the disk in her bag. “There’s a connection you left out, Dr. Mira. Something these two women had in common.” Eve’s eyes were hard and cold. “Family. Both of them had close family that was a large and important part of their lives. I’d say that lets me out as a possible target. Wouldn’t you?”
“Perhaps. Have you been thinking of your family, Eve?”
“Don’t play with me.”
“You mentioned it,” Mira pointed out. “You’re always careful in what you say to me, so I must assume family is on your mind.”
“I don’t have family,” Eve shot back. “And I’ve got murder on my mind. If you want to report to the commander that I’m unfit for duty, that’s just fine.”
“When are you going to trust me?” There was impatience, for the first time in Eve’s memory, in the careful voice. “Is it so impossible for you to believe that I care about you? Yes, I care,” Mira said when Eve blinked in surprise. “And I understand you better than you wish to admit.”
“I don’t need for you to understand me.” But there were nerves in Eve’s voice now. She heard them herself. “I’m not in Testing or here for a therapy session.”
“There are no recorders on here.” Mira set her tea down with a snap that had Eve jamming her hands in her pockets. “Do you think you’re the only child who lived with horror and abuse? The only woman who’s struggled to overcome it?”
“I don’t have to overcome anything. I don’t remember—”
“My stepfather raped me repeatedly from the time I was twelve until I was fifteen,” Mira said calmly, and stopped Eve’s protest cold. “For those three years I lived never knowing when it would happen, only that it would. And no one would listen to me.”
Shaken, sick, Eve wrapped her arms around her body. “I don’t want to know this. Why are you telling me this?”
“Because I look in your eyes and see myself. But you have someone who’ll listen to you, Eve.”
Eve stood where she was, moistened her dry lips. “Why did it stop?”
“Because I finally found the courage to go to an abuse center, tell the counselor everything, to submit to the examinations, both physical and psychiatric. The terror of that, the humiliation of that, was no longer as huge as the alternative.”
“Why should I have to remember it?” Eve demanded. “It’s over.”
“Why aren’t you sleeping?”
“The investigation—”
“Eve.”
The gentle tone had Eve closing her eyes. It was so hard, so trying, to fight that quiet compassion. “Flashbacks,” she murmured, hating herself for the weakness. “Nightmares.”
“Of before you were found in Texas?”