“Oh. Oh Christ.” Peabody choked, went glassily pale, stumbled back. “Dallas . . .”
“Get some air. Go on.”
“I’m okay, I . . .” But her head spun, her stomach revolted. She managed to get to the side of the bridge before she lost the cheese and bean tacos she’d shared with McNab.
Eve closed her eyes a moment, bore down and bore down hard. There was a dull roar in her head, like the sea cresting. She blanked her mind until she was certain the rumbles she heard were from the traffic on the level below and from the sky overhead.
With steady hands, she unbuttoned Mills’s fouled shirt. He’d been sliced, one long wide swath, from breastbone to crotch.
She noted it into the record while Peabody retched.
Sickened, she straightened, stepped back, let the marginally fresher air fill her lungs. Her gaze skimmed over a sea of faces: some grim, some horrified, some frightened. Peabody wasn’t the only cop leaning over the bridge.
“I’m all right. I’m okay.”
Through the pounding bells in her ears, Eve heard Peabody’s weak voice.
“Come on, sit down a minute. Sit down, honey.”
“McNab, get her recorder. I need it here.”
“No, I can do it. I can.” Peabody nudged McNab’s patting hands away, straightened her shoulders. Her face was dead white to the lips. She shuddered once, but she walked back. “I’m sorry, Lieutenant.”
“There’s no shame in it. Give me your recorder. I’ll finish this.”
“No, sir. I can hold.”
After a moment’s study, Eve nodded. “Get him on record. Don’t think about it. Close your mind to it.”
“How?” Peabody asked, but turned to do the work.
Eve lifted a hand, had nearly rubbed it over her face before she remembered what it was smeared with. “Where the hell’s the ME?”
“Lieutenant.” Roarke stepped to her, held out a pristine white silk handkerchief.
“Yeah, thanks.” She used it without a thought. “You can’t be here. You have to stay back.” She looked around for somewhere to dispose of the smeared silk and ended up stuffing it into an evidence bag.
“You need to take a minute,” Roarke said quietly. “Anyone would.”
“I can’t afford it. I fold, even look like I’m going to, and I lose control of the scene.” She stayed crouched, added a fresh coat of sealant to her hands. She got to her feet, handed him the ruined handkerchief in its bag. “Sorry about that.”
Then she planted her feet, legs spread, as Roth marched back to Mills’s car with Clooney in her wake. Roth stopped short, as if she’d run into an invisible wall, and stared at what there was of the man who’d served under her command.
“Ah, holy mother of God.” It was all she said, her only sign of distress. While her eyes were burning dry, Clooney’s misted with tears.
“Jesus, Mills. Jesus, look what they did to you.” He closed his eyes, breathed long and deep. “We can’t tell the family this. Can’t give them the details of this. Captain Roth, we have to go inform next of kin before they hear some other way. We have to cover over the worst of this for their sakes.”
“All right, Art. All right.” She looked over as Eve took out her communicator.
“What are you doing?”
“Checking on the ME, Captain.”
“I’ve just done so. ETA is under two minutes. A moment, Lieutenant. In private. Clooney, assist the lieutenant’s aide in keeping the scene secure. I don’t want any of those cops moving closer.”
Eve walked away with her, away from the glare of lights into the softer shadows. The air cleared, the scent of exhaust and pavement was like balm after a burn.
“Lieutenant, I apologize for my earlier outburst.”