My own true love,
You found me in the wind last night, just
sitting, just trying to figure out what my life is all
about.
We can't marry. And yet last night I took you
and did my best to make you conceive. Forgive me for
my selfishness. Go to Jillian. She'll tell you the truth.
Make her tell you. She will if you push her hard
enough, and call her Grandmother, and force her to
abandon her disguise.
The love I have for you is the best thing that
has ever happened to me. I thank you for loving and
giving me so much, even knowing all my weaknesses.
And my greatest flaw has been my overwhelming
love and devotion to my brother. 1 have been blind,
deliberately blind.
Jillian came and told me everything. To save
you I have to accept what could have saved your
mother. For Jillian had to admit that Tony was wild
with his infatuation to possess your mother. I know
now, after you have goaded me into thinking
backward, that she hated him, and he was the one she
ran from. Heaven, you are Tony's daughter, and my
own niece!
I'm going away until I can learn to live without
you. Even if you weren't Tony's daughter, and my
niece, I'd ruin your life. 1 don't know how to live
complacently and accept each day as it comes. I have
to make every day meaningful and important, for each
day I live seems always the last one.