illumination. I closed my eyes and in minutes, I was
as deeply asleep as Cary.
Hours later, I awoke with a start. For a moment
I forgot what had happened. It all came rushing back
and I sat up, realizing Cary was no longer beside me.
He was at the window, gazing out.
"Cary?"
"Oh," he said turning. "I should have just gone
to my room. I didn't mean to wake you."
"You didn't. Are you all right?"
"Yeah. I just woke up and felt a little nervous. I
like looking out at the ocean whenever I'm nervous or
afraid. I guess that's where I find my meditation.
Laura's room always had a better view of the coast
than mine. I would either come here or go up to the
attic. leave and let you sleep," he said, turning from
the window and starting toward the door.
"No, don't leave," I said. He paused.
"I can't stay here all night. Ma wouldn't understand," he said.
"Just stay a little while longer."
"I'll fall asleep again," he threatened.
"I won't let you do that," I said. Something in
my voice brought a smile to his face that was so
bright, I could see it even in the darkness. He returned
to my bed and sprawled out beside me. Then he
leaned forward and kissed me gently on the lips. We
embraced and kissed again. His hands moved over my
shoulders and down my arms. He brought my fingers
to his lips and then he put his head against my bosom
and moaned. I closed my eyes and drank in the warm