Letting You Go (Stone Lake 1)

If we ever get to that point of our relationship.

Something is going to have to change…

“Oh my God. Jules you have to tell your parents. That’s just too much. It’s almost… threatening.”

“Nah. Maybe whoever it is, is heavy into goth.”

“You mean like that Bixler kid?”

“Ew. He’s only a freshman. That’d ruin me.”

“Or maybe that Laney chick that recently transferred here,” I suggest with a smirk.

“A girl? Hmm… I never thought of that. I mean, I don’t really think of girls that way.”

“No muff diving for you?”

“Gross Atticus, do you have to call it that?” Luna says, scrunching up her nose.

She really is too innocent. I’ll have to work to get her the way I want her. If I can ever get in there with her.

I shrug in reply.

“Still, she’s kind of pretty in a Jennifer Love-Hewitt meets Jessica Alba and throw in Sarah Jessica Parker, just because.”

“Because, why?” Luna asks.

“Because no one should be as pretty as Jennifer and Jessica. It defies the natural order of things.” Jules lifts a shoulder.

“Luna’s that pretty,” I add in.

“Awe, Attie!” Luna laughs, blushing prettily.

“Yeah, awe, Attie. You really need to quit trying so hard. You’re being your own kind of creepy,” Jules mocks.

“I’m just stating the truth.” I try not to growl the words at her.

“Desperate, much?” Jules whispers, rolling her eyes at me.

“Jules, leave Atticus alone. He doesn’t mean anything like that. He knows we’re just friends.”

“But does he, Luna?”

“Of course he does. Right, Attie?”

“Right,” I mutter, unable to say much more.

“And that’s all you’ll ever be,” Jules says, her eyes mocking me and as usual, Luna is clueless.

“Attie is one of my best friends. I’d be lost without either of you,” Luna argues. “Right now, though, I better get. I have to meet Mrs. Raine in the library for a makeup biology exam. I missed it the other day when I went to the dentist. Catch you guys on the flipside,” she calls over her shoulder, walking away.

“Don’t you ever get tired of sporting a hard on for Luna, knowing she’ll never think of you as more than a pet?” Jules asks me.

“You don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“I know my girl would rather kiss anyone at this school than you, and that includes yours truly.”

“Whatever. Luna doesn’t see me as anyone other than her friend yet. She will.”

“When pigs fly. Hate to break it to you, Attie, but you’ve been friend-zoned for life when it comes to Luna.”

“I don’t—”

“Even if by some miracle. I mean, let’s say lightning came down from the gods and struck Luna and she suddenly realized that you’re madly in love with her, there’s no way she’d ever go there with you.”

“Why not? Lots of girls in this school want me.”

“Of course they do, you’re hot. You got that unrequited love thing going and you rock it. Luna only sees you as Gavin’s little brother. You’re doomed with her.”

“You’re wrong. Gavin and Luna are over. She wants nothing to do with my brother, not since he spread those lies on her. She’s done with him.”

“Oh poor, poor Atticus. You’re so blind to how girls really think.”

“I don’t think so,” I grumble.

Jules slides next to me. We’re both sitting on the ground, under the shade of an old Maple tree. She reaches up and slides her fingers in my hair and she bites her lip. I know what she wants. You’d have to be stupid not to. Jules isn’t like Luna. She’s not innocent. I’ve never gone there with her, because of Luna, but most of the boys in our class have. I look down at her chest. Her light pink shirt has a wide V-neck and it’s open to show a lot of cleavage. You can see the black silk strap of her bra and the dark color bleeds through under the shirt, so that you can see the form of her breasts perfectly.

“Don’t you get tired of pining over a girl who will never see you as a man, Attie? Who will never give you the pleasure you deserve? Who will always prefer your brother over you?”

“What do you know that I don’t?”

“Exactly what I’m telling you. But don’t worry, Attie. I’m here to heal your wounded heart, and I’ll kiss it all better.”

“You will, huh?”

“Definitely.”

“You can’t ever tell, Luna.”

“It will be our secret,” she agrees with a smile as I move my hand up to squeeze her tit. “Our dirty little secret.”

She’s not the one I want, but she might prove useful and a guy can’t live on love alone. I shrug, standing up. Jules gets up too and I let her lead me. I know she’s headed to the weight lifting room. The showers in the back are legendary around here.

Looks like Jules and I will be missing fifth period.

Chapter Twenty Two

Luna

It’s official. Maine’s weather is on crack. A few weeks back we could sit outside with our coats on and have lunch. Today it’s snowing and school has been canceled. There’s so much snow that it will take weeks to dig out. The white stuff might be beautiful, but I’m definitely not a fan. I won’t get to spend this weekend with Gavin and the thought of going so long without seeing him or being around him hurts me.