“Why didn’t you show me when we talked about this?”
“I don’t know. I wasn’t thinking. I knew it was all so much for you to…digest.”
She nodded. “That’s an understatement.”
“Look, baby. Most of this is in my past. I don’t expect you to…” Didn’t expect her to what? Would I love to see her bound for my pleasure, ready to take my hard cock?
Yes, I would.
But I could never ask her to do that. Especially not after she had been kidnapped and bound and nearly killed.
“I’ll tell you what,” I said. “Why don’t you take over the redecorating and make this room into whatever you want? An office, maybe. You’ll need a home office after all. It won’t be
long until you’re practicing again.”
“I couldn’t.”
“Of course you can. This is your home now, Melanie. I want you to have your own space here.”
“I understand that, Jonah. I just can’t have…this space. Knowing that you were down here with other women…” She let out a small laugh. “I suppose that doesn’t make any sense. I’m sure you had other women in your bedroom from time to time.”
“Yes, from time to time.”
But this did bother her. I could see it in her eyes. She was trying to understand, but this was disturbing her. How much, I wasn’t sure.
“All right. We’ll make this into another guest room. You can use one of the upstairs rooms for your office.”
“No,” she said. “I don’t think this should be a new guest room. I mean, you have plenty of guest rooms.”
I caressed her silky hair. “Then what would you like to do with this room, my love?”
She looked at me, still biting her lip, her emerald eyes shining. “I want you to show me what you do in this room. I want you to show me now.”
Chapter Seventeen
Melanie
I trembled inside. Was I actually ready for this? I wasn’t sure. All I knew was I loved this man with all my heart and soul, and I wanted to understand him more than anything. If surrendering to him in this dark dungeon would please him, that is exactly what I would do.
“Baby, this isn’t necessary.”
“No, Jonah, it is necessary. I just met a woman who you were intimate with in this room, a room I didn’t even know existed, despite the fact that I’ve been living here. I made myself a promise yesterday when I left here. I promised to take my life back, to take myself back. I’ve been looking at myself in a different way since my kidnapping. It made me look at Gina’s death in an entirely different way, a way that may turn out to be correct. Maybe finding this room is part of the journey I need to take. If you and I are going to be together, I need to understand you. In every way. I know there’s a part of you that still craves this.” I drew in a deep breath and let it out. “Tell me, honestly. Is there part of you that wants to see me tied down on this bed or that table?”
He tensed up, his brow furrowed. “Melanie, I love our relationship exactly the way it is.”
“That’s not what I asked you. I believe you. I believe you love me and you love our relationship as it is. But tell me honestly. Is there something inside you that would love to see me naked, bound, ready for your pain and pleasure?”
He swallowed audibly, and my eyes were drawn to his Adam’s apple as he did so. Still, he did not respond.
I knew the answer. If it were no, he would have no problem saying so.
But Jonah could not lie to me, any more than I could lie to him. Our love bound us, not just physically but emotionally.
Now I knew the truth.
The only question up in the air was whether I could give in to his deepest desires.
I wanted to try.