She slowly lifted her head to stare at him. “And what exactly is that supposed to mean?”
“Exactly what it sounded like.”
She stood and tossed the garbage bag inside her truck. “What the hell good would it do? I’m obviously too far gone.”
CHAPTER
69
THEY WERE WALKING ALONG THE BEACH. Valerie carried her sandals while Sean slouched guiltily along, his head bowed, his loafers quickly filling up with sand. He had called Valerie because he couldn’t think of another promising line of investigation, and because of her husband’s conversation with Michelle. However, she’d pounced on him as soon as he’d stepped out of his car. She knew all about Sean Carter, including that his real name was Sean King.
“I take it you’ve talked to your husband?” he said.
“Oh yes! If there’s one thing old Ian is really good at it’s finding out stuff. You’re ex–Secret Service and you’re down here investigating those murders at Babbage Town. I can’t believe I fell for your lines. I really can’t believe it.”
“Valerie, it wasn’t exactly like that.”
She whirled on him. “Are you denying you used me to try and get information on my husband? Are you denying that you followed me to that bar after Ian told you to back off?”
“No, I don’t deny that. But—”
“Then there are no buts.”
“Yes I was fishing for information, but I was just doing my job.”
“What you did was unforgivable.”
“Valerie. I’m sorry if it hurt you. But when you’re trying to find out how people were murdered… If I’d had any other way of getting info I would have.”
She stared up at him, her arms folded across her chest, her sandals in the sand where she had dropped them. The ocean breeze whipped her white slacks against her legs. Slowly the look of fury on her face faded. “I guess I never expected it to happen to me. I never expected to be taken in. Not after Ian anyway.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean I thought he married me because he loved me. I was obviously wrong about that.”
“Why then?”
“Who the hell knows? And then you come along and for the first time in my marriage I think, what would it be like to be with another man. You! You son of a bitch!”
Sean stared uncomfortably at her. “Valerie, I can only say that it was very difficult for me to keep a professional distance.”
“Professional distance! Oh, that makes me feel so loved.” Tears were sliding down her cheeks and she angrily wiped them away.
“I’m sorry, Valerie. I really am.”
“Just save the lies for someone else. I don’t need to hear them.”
She stopped, stooped down, picked up a seashell and angrily flung it at a wave. She whirled around and grabbed his jacket with her hand. “And do you want to know the real kicker?”
Sean’s expression showed that, no, he really didn’t want to know the kicker. Yet he said, “Tell me, I deserve it.”
“Maybe you don’t.”
“Valerie, if I could take it all back, I would, but I can’t. So just tell me.”
Her gaze finally broke off from him, but only for a second. “I can’t tell you how much I want to go to bed with you. After all this shit. After everything you’ve done, used me, betrayed me. How much of a loser am I? How much! Because I want to screw your freaking brains out. What the hell does that say about me, Sean!”
She started sobbing. He went to hold her but she pushed him away. He took her in his arms again and this time she let him hold her.