Into the Darkness

“Sure. So what’s happening with Julian? He looked pretty pissed the other night.”

“I need time to think about him. Look, for now Lex and I are just friends so I’m not cheating on Julian. He said he would give me time.”

“Yeah but in the mean time you’re going out on dates with Lex. Charlie, just break it off with him.”

“It’s not that simple.”

“Yes it is. You are just being greedy and want to hog all the hot guys for yourself.”

“I am not!” I whined.

“WANG HOGGER!”

“Don’t you dare call me that on Facebook.”

“I wouldn’t dare…” He smirked.

Eric left, leaving me feeling a little nervous. I sat there watching the clock. It was seven on the dot when I raced downstairs nearly tripping into the elevator. The sleek black Mercedes sat there in front of the building. The door opened and out walked Lex. He wore a black suit with a black shirt. His eyes shone so bright, he didn’t need to say anything, his face said it all and then suddenly I felt it. It caught me by surprise. My heart fluttered, my breaths became uneven and I stood there like I was frozen. I knew that flutter, and I couldn’t help but smile remembering he was the first person who ever made me feel like that…

June 2005

It had been a month since that night of the concert or to be exact the night Alex and I finally had sex. In the space of that month we fucked God knows how many times in different places and in as many positions that would warrant a Karma Sutra sequel. He was insatiable and every part of me was desperate for more. A few times I was worried we would be caught but somehow we came up with an alibi until the principal contacted my dad about my three absences in two weeks and wanted to make sure I was OK.

“Charlie, can you please explain this?” He slid the note across the table. It was a letter addressed to him requesting him to authorize my absence at school.

“Look Charlie, what’s going on? You’re a straight-A student. Is Adriana making you skip school?”

I hesitated, looking for a valid excuse. “It’s stupid and I’m sorry, Dad. There is this guy at school. I liked him and he kinda said some not-so-nice stuff so I’ve been avoiding him,” I lied.

“Charlie, since when does a boy do this to you? I’ve raised you better than this. I see how you are with Logan, no one gives you shit.”

“I know, Dad. I’m sorry, it won’t happen again. You’re right. I need to find my balls again.”

He rubbed his beard and gazed at me before leaning down to sign the letter. “I trust you Charlie, this better not happen again. You understand me?”

“Yes, Dad. I’m sorry.”

After lunch was finished and the dishes were done I told my dad I would be up in my room studying. I had to admit the constant lying was tiresome and often met myself coming back with lies but I had no intention of being caught or giving Alex up. I needed to get in contact with him; just a text would be enough. I used our code in case he was with her.

Hi Lex, did Adriana ask you for the notes I needed for my paper on that history assignment?

I waited impatiently for him to respond. I couldn’t concentrate on studying. I needed him just for a moment and then I would finish my history paper.

Hi baby, I’m off in an hour. Any chance of meeting up? I miss you.

I couldn’t stop smiling because that’s how he made me feel, happy. I had no idea how I could get out now with it being a Saturday afternoon and with my dad off for the night.

Meet me at the back of the library.

Quickly grabbing my books and my backpack, I attempted to walk like a normal human being and not in a rush to meet my married boyfriend. The stairs proved tricky as I nearly fell down the last few steps because my laces were untied.

“Dad, I’m off to the library for an hour before it closes. I’ll pick something up for dinner if you like?” I yelled from the front door.

He walked into the living room, awkwardly shuffling his feet. He opened his mouth to say something and then shut it.

“Yes? No?” I asked, trying to rush.

“I uh… kinda…uh…have dinner plans tonight,” he mumbled.