Into the Darkness

“And how do you think Mr. Trustworthy would handle knowing that you spent your weekend fucking me?”

“My relationship with Julian is just that, between the two of us. Okay, so yeah, it was my fault for this nothing’s off limits thing but well…” I searched for a reason to justify my impulsive behavior. There was no reason other than the fact that I was a horny little bitch who needed my fix.

“Yeah, I get it. The rabbit broke and you needed cock,” he answered a little hurt.

“No Lex, it’s not like that… Please don’t get me wrong… Oh shit, let me pull my feet out of my mouth.” This was going downhill very fast. “I just needed you…physically.”

“Like I said.” He stood up and wiped his hands on his jeans.

“Lex, you know it’s not like that—”

He cut me off, handing me the helmet. “Let’s head back before sunrise.”

“But I thought you wanted to watch it?”

“I suddenly changed my mind,” he answered coldly.

The ride back seemed awfully fast. I checked the speedometer a few times and he was way over the legal limit. As we got back to the property it was obvious he had the shits with me. He said he was tired and was heading to bed. I didn’t dare follow him. Instead I sat on the porch knowing that I was well and truly in the wrong. Yes, I was still hurt but tonight I had no right to trample all over his obviously hurt feelings even though I had no idea guys could be offended like that. I had to somehow make this right but the weight of tonight events suddenly felt enormous. I pulled my sorry ass to bed and fell asleep just before sunrise.

I felt my body moving, like I was lying on a trampoline. What the hell was this dream about? It happened again but this time I opened my eyes, there was jumping and it was waking me up from my deep slumber. I was just about to yell when it dawned on me that it was Will…or no, it was Rocky.

“Rocky, what the fuck?” I groaned. He was standing on my bed jumping like a fucking four-year-old. Except he was making moaning sounds and screaming my name.

“ROCKY ROMANO GET THE FUCK OFF MY BED!” I was exhausted. He continued jumping until I got up and pushed him off the bed.

“Are you kidding me? Plus, I don’t sound like that…moron.”

He stood up laughing as he walked out of the room scratching his ass. I decided to have a quick shower to wake myself up but a quick shower turned into a much longer one and I think I may have accidently fallen asleep in there. I finally got dressed and headed to the kitchen. The house was quiet and I wondered what everyone was up to. “Morning, Elijah. Where is everyone? Apart from Gorilla over here,” I said pointing to Rocky who was doing the maze that was on the back of the cereal box. He let out a big “no” when he realized it was a dead-end. Seriously, even Will could have done that with his eyes closed.

“Adriana and Bull’s went to the markets and Lex and Will are playing on the beach.”

I quickly ate a piece of toast and headed out to the beach. A few minutes later I stood there by the bushes watching Lex play football with Will. He looked so content, teaching Will how to kick, the laughter that came off them when Will tackled Lex. At that moment my heart broke a little. Was this all my fault? Yes, Lex left me but I made it nearly impossible for him to find me again. He did what was expected of him back then and I acted like a spoiled teen annoyed that he chose someone else. He was different now, he truly was a man. A wonderful man. He had given me no reason at all not to trust him so why did I still have this nagging feeling inside? Lex caught sight of me. I walked down to where they were playing.

“Hi Cha Cha! Lex taught me how to tackle and do a scrum thing.”

“I can see. If you go pro you would make your daddy a very happy man.”

He ran off to where the towels were to grab a drink. It gave Lex and I a moment together in which I had no idea what to say. I probably should start with saying sorry since I was in the wrong. “Lex about last night—”

“Nothing left to be said, Charlie. You made your feelings clear. I?

?m giving you space and time. I’m not pushing you anymore.”

“You called me Charlie…”

“That’s what everyone else calls you. I am like everybody else, just a friend,” he answered coldly.

The words hurt. No, he wasn’t pushing me but why all of a sudden did I want to be pushed? Why did I want him to tell me I was his and only his and most importantly I wanted him to call me Charlotte. He wasn’t like everyone else. Will interrupted us asking to go into the water. I agreed and stripped off my clothes wearing only this white ruffled bikini. I caught Lex looking me up and down. I had to admit it felt nice that he couldn’t completely ignore me.

We jumped into the waves. Will was having the time of his life. Lex piggybacked him, taking him a little further which made me slightly nervous but there were lifeguards out so I stopped worrying about it. An hour later we decided to head back for lunch. I was seriously exhausted. I couldn’t shake this tired feeling and knew I would have to sneak in a ‘nana nap’ somewhere today.

Back at the house we jumped into the pool while Elijah barbequed some burgers. Rocky was having swimming races with Will. Bull’s and Adriana came back from the markets sporting their new sun hats. I swear it was a hilarious sight, especially because the hats were bigger than planet Jupiter. Lex had left, where to I wasn’t sure. After lunch I felt extremely drowsy so I decided to head to my room to take a nap. I dozed off almost instantly to be awoken by Bull’s. It was a little after four when she woke me.

“Charlie, are you feeling okay?”

I mumbled something then opened my eyes. “Yeah, just barely any sleep the past two nights.”

“Plus I think you may have sunstroke.” She giggled, pulling my tank top aside. Holy cow I was burned! I usually tanned but in the midst of this morning’s mayhem I forgot to put sunblock on. I groaned at the sight of the redness. Hopefully with an overdose of aloe vera I would tan over.