Size Matters (Chaos and Carnage MC 1)

“I’m fine.” She didn’t know why she felt the need to say it.

Lifting her hand, she tugged at the edge of the t-shirt she wore. It was white and one of Bull’s. It didn’t smell like him.

The tears that filled her eyes spilled over her cheeks.

She lifted her shirt and stared at her reflection, not liking what stared back at her. Before the attack, she’d been trying with her diet, and she’d lost a few pounds. She didn’t even know how much she had lost now, or gained.

Maddie threw the shirt onto the bed and stared at her body. Her stomach was still round and her hips were wide. The bra she wore hid her breasts. It was unflattering. She loved lingerie, but this was a sporty kind of bra. She didn’t feel sexy at all.

“When have you ever felt sexy?” she asked.

“You’re fat. You’re ugly. No man is ever going to want you.”

Her mother’s cruelty was a constant reminder of what she was never going to have.

“What are you doing up here?” Bull asked.

She gasped, spinning around to see him enter the bedroom. “I didn’t hear you arrive home.”

“Clearly.”

Maddie tried to grab the t-shirt to cover up her body, but Bull got there first, grabbing the shirt and bunching it up into his fist.

“Can I have that back, please?” she asked.

“No.”

“Don’t do this.”

“Don’t what?” he asked. “Don’t look at you? You want me to stand here with my eyes closed?”

“I was just…”

“What?”

She blew out a breath. “You will never understand.”

“I know what your mother did to you was fucked up.”

“My mother didn’t do anything to me.”

“No? You’re not looking in that mirror telling yourself how ugly you are? How fat?” he asked.

She flinched as he spat the words at her.

He shook his head. “I hate that woman, Maddie. I fucking hate her.”

With a few swift steps, he was right in front of her, and she had nowhere to go. As she stared up at him, her eyes went wide as he banded a hand around her waist and pulled her in close they were chest to chest.

“What are you doing?” she asked.

“I’m touching you, Maddie. I’m trying to find out what your mother was so afraid of, but I think I know what it was.”

“My mom wasn’t afraid of anyone or anything.”

“I beg to differ. Your mother was terrified of you and because she was, she bullied you.”

Maddie shook her head. “She wasn’t a bully.”

“The names she called you. Any kid doing that to another would be called a bully. What makes your mom so different? Because she was a parent?”

She swiped at the tears that continued to fall, hating the feeling that filled her. “It’s not just her though, is it?”

“Your pathetic dates? That’s what they are, pathetic excuses for men. You, Maddie, are all woman, and they can’t stand that. They can’t stand to know that you’re too much for them, and they’re not man enough to handle you.”

She snorted. “If that was the case, what about your brother? Isn’t he man enough?”

“My brother is a boy in a man’s body. He doesn’t count for shit.”

She shook her head. There were too many people telling her how bad she was. “Can I have my shirt, please?”

Bull spun her around and placed one hand on her stomach. The other, he wrapped in her hair, tugging her head back.

“I get that you’ve been told what you look like by assholes, but the only opinion that counts is mine.”

The hand on her stomach moved up.

“I will grant you, this bra is ugly. It needs to go.” His lips grazed across her neck.

She closed her eyes as her body woke up. Her nipples tightened and her pussy grew slick. The hand on her stomach left, and she felt the catch at the back get tugged before her breasts spilled out.

“Now that’s a beautiful sight,” he said.

Maddie didn’t fight him as the bra was removed and he cupped her breast in his big palm.

“You look at these tits and you think they’re fat and ugly? They’re not. They are so beautiful.” He pinched a nipple, and she cried out. “And so sensitive.” His teeth grazed her ear. “I love how tight they are. It’s like your body knows I’m its master, and I am, Maddie. I’m the one who’s in charge of this body.”

He let go of her hair and then both of his hands were on her tits, pressing them together. “I can’t wait until I can fuck these tits. You’ll squeeze them together around my dick until I come all over them.” He groaned.

Bull kept one hand on her breast and slid the other down her body, touching her stomach.

“Your curves don’t intimidate me, Maddie. They make me fucking hot for you.” He pressed his cock against her ass, and she moaned, wanting him inside her.