RUIN: Psychological Enemies-to-Lovers Thriller

She shivered. “Yes.”

I gripped her fat ass harder and pumped fast into her. “Now it’s my turn.”

Part of me wanted to turn her body over. I yearned to see her beautiful face covered in mud while I climaxed. I loved the way those pretty brown eyes widened with hot lust when she took my dick. She’d done the same thing when it was in her mouth last night.

But that fat ass made me crazy.

“So fucking beautiful!” I gazed down at that jiggling muddy ass and fucked her with a fierceness I’d never known. I pumped my dick into her. My body tightened.

“Oh!”

“Fuck!” There was this blissful sensation as cum began to shoot up my dick. “Oh, Phoenix!”

My orgasm ripped through me. Unable to help myself, I curled my toes and plunged deeper, driving me further into climax.

Phoenix. Phoenix. Phoenix.

Fast, I pulled my dick out and stroked the long length, spurting cum all over her beautiful, muddied ass. “That’s right.”

She shuddered as it fell on her.

“God. Yes.” Groaning, I stroked the tip faster. More streams of white cum flew from my dick and painted her. “Mine! Fucking mine!”

I’ll never release her.

Exhausted, I fell to the side and collapsed into the puddle next to her. I rolled onto my back and tried to catch my breath.

That was heaven.

Never had I’d experienced such an intense orgasm.

Why was that so different from other women?

My chest rose and fell fast. My rapid pulse began to calm.

It’s her.

So spent, all I could do was lay in the puddled mud and close my eyes. Mud smoothed against the back of my head. I lay there, riding the afterglow of that breathtaking sensual moment.

A satisfied sigh left me.

Heaven.

I kept my eyes closed.

Meanwhile, a huge smile spread across my face.

Honestly, I wasn’t sure if I’d ever been this satisfied from anything in my entire life. I doubted I’d ever been this content.

She’s heaven. She’s paradise.

Cool drops drummed against my skin. I had no motivation to move or shield myself. No energy yet to open my eyes.

It all felt so good.

So right.

And I traveled a cloud of ecstasy.

I could feel my body rising along with my spirit to the rain-soaked sky.

This is fucking amazing!

I could feel these holes appearing all throughout my heart. It was like something had been stuffed into them. And after spending time with Phoenix, whatever was blocking the holes popped out.

She’s changing me. I know it deep down in my soul.

For a second, I froze.

A fear rushed through me. I yearned to fill those holes in my heart back instantly. Stuff anything into them. Anything to block out this emptiness.

No. I can’t fill my chest with just anything.

Thunder crackled.

I remained still in the mud with my eyes closed, thinking of new possibilities. My chest slowed its rising and falling.

I must fill those holes in my heart with her.

Phoenix was the answer.

I’d had sex with women before, but never did I experience this much satisfaction. This much bliss. This much. . .healing. It was the same when I’d cut Phoenix. Never had I found so much cruel gratification and haunting pleasure. Never had I changed. Never had I actually experienced a sense of empathy with anyone invited to that room.

It’s her.

A maddening notion rushed to me.

We’d barely spent two full days together. However, the time with her had been the most engrossing experiences of my life.

I absolutely can’t kill her.

The batter of the rain lightened up. The chill in the air began to warm. Soon, there would be no storm, just sunshine and a bright sky, green damp grass, and a rippling blue lake.

This month’s strip club job proved to be better than all the rest. I’d gone into the club for money. Now I had something more, something deeper to live for.

Fuck the money. Fuck the exchange. I want her. My brothers will have to understand.

A wise man once said that the workings of the human heart were the profoundest mystery of the universe.

I now understood that to be correct.

Somehow, I found this deep connection with this unsuspecting person. An intense connection that I’d never experienced. One that linked the body, heart, soul, and mind to ecstasy. To peace. To understanding. To healing. To growth.

How did this happen? And so fast? She. . .touched the deeper parts of me. . .

For these past dark years, I’d barely been able to move forward in this cruel world.

I was hopeless and distraught. Only trying to survive. Only happy if an evil person cried in pain and dripped in blood. Only satisfied in the silence of the chapel, scared to venture out too far. Even to the house where my siblings lived. Nervous I would infect them with the darkness of me. Terrified that they would run from me again, screaming.

Frightened that they would continue to confirm that I really was a monster.