The Warrior

“Have you?” Payn repeated insistently.

“I learned long ago never to dream of anything but vengeance.”

“Vengeance is a cold bedfellow, my good friend. And once you achieve it, what is left?”

What indeed?he wondered. Perhaps he was getting old. Too often of late he had felt an aching weariness deep in his soul, his spirit drained by the constant struggle to prove himself. Too often he found himself questioning whether the fight held any meaning. There were times he even envied the peasants, whose sole ambition was to own a pig or a cow. They seemed satisfied with their lot. Somehow they found happiness in their simple existence. . . .

Realizing how morose his thoughts had grown, Ranulf made a soft, frustrated sound. “God’s bones, if I wanted to bare my soul, I would have called for the priest!”

The intensity slowly left Payn’s features, and he nodded, exhaling a soft sigh. “Well, then . . . if you refuse to wed the Lady Ariane, the honorable course would be to set her free—permit her to wed elsewhere.”

No, Ranulf thought with a fierce surge of jealousy. Ariane belonged to him. He had claimed her as his, and what was his he kept.

“She is your hostage, and a beauty. She could bring you a tidy sum, even if slightly tarnished by your usage.”

Ranulf frowned, not liking to consider what his usage had done to her future. Yet her lack of virginity would not decrease her worth so much that she could never find a husband. She still possessed pride and grace and a haunting loveliness that would do any lord credit, and an allure that made a man burn. A discerning man might take her to wife, even without wealth and lands.

Ariane appeared just then in the hall, and Ranulf caught his breath at the sight. Her blue silk bliaud molded her tall body, defining and praising every feminine curve and emphasizing her firm, lush breasts, while the golden girdle, worn loose about the waist, draped the slender hips that had succored him so delightfully for the past several days. Her glorious hair, plaited and wound around the crown of her head, made him yearn to free it and bury his hands and face in the silken mass.

Then she turned her head, and their eyes met in a long silent moment. The seething pulse of desire that leapt between them made Ranulf’s entire body clench.

It vexed him that she could make him want her so powerfully, that she could seduce him merely by being. He had thought that once he slaked his lust, he would have no trouble dismissing Ariane from his mind, and yet his damnable craving had increased tenfold. He had claimed her body as his due, without consideration for her pride or feelings, simply to prove to her and to himself that she meant naught to him. But his plan was failing wretchedly.

Ranulf cursed beneath his breath, scorning himself for his weakness. It was madness to feel as hungry and obsessed as he did. He could not allow himself to need her like this. Surrendering himself to her power could prove as perilous as turning his back on an enemy on a battlefield.

Forcing his gaze away, he took a long draught of ale, remarking to his vassal, “She is my hostage, nothing more.”

And she would remain nothing more to him, Ranulf swore fiercely to himself. He might cherish her delicious body, but he would not wed her. He might desire her, but he would not permit himself to fall deeper under her spell than he already had. He dared not risk the consequences. Never would he give any woman the power to destroy him, the way his despised father had been destroyed.

His manner bewildered Ariane. By night Ranulf played the sensual, passionate lover of her dreams; by day a near stranger.

She watched him at every opportunity, trying desperately to understand the bent of his mind, and more crucially, the hidden secrets of his heart. Toward his men and dependents, Ranulf was good natured and mild tempered, often exhibiting evidence of the formidable charm Payn had spoken of. She could see clearly why his leadership commanded their obedience and esteem, and why his magnetism drew the attention of so many eager women, unwed or wed. He was a proud, dynamic warrior, vital and charismatic, with the ability to inspire admiration and awe. His just rule and skilled administration had begun to sway even his harshest detractors. William, the young page Ranulf had promised to train, frankly adored him, but one by one, others followed suit.

Her half-brother Gilbert continued to rail against Ranulf for the shaming role he had forced upon her, and still spoke of suing him in civil court, but Claredon’s villeins had accepted the new lord’s authority fully, while her father’s vassals had come to offer Ranulf a grudging sort of respect and even deference.

Toward her, however, his manner remained cool and detached, except when she shared his bed. That he still did not trust her was abundantly clear. Ranulf gave of himself physically, but he seemed determined to guard against any deeper form of intimacy.

His aloofness seemed calculated to keep an emotional distance between them. Was it an attempt to keep his heart safe from her? To defend that wounded organ from further hurt? She thought Payn’s supposition might be accurate: Ranulf had shielded his heart with impregnable armor to keep it invulnerable. And as yet she had discovered no way to pierce it.

Observing him at arms practice with his men or at ease in the great hall, Ariane found herself envying the camaraderie they shared. When Ranulf laughed aloud, the deep, rich tones resonated with congeniality and made her hurt inside, for she realized how huge a gulf existed between them. They were enemies still, despite their physical closeness. She cherished those moments of intimacy, of reluctant tenderness, when they were alone together.

Not that she objected to the physical aspect of their relationship. Far from it. Of late it seemed all she could think about was having Ranulf between her thighs. And heknew it, the devil smite his arrogance.

The first time he caught her in a blatant scrutiny of him, Ariane blushed bright red. She had been admiring the way his tunic pulled tight across his broad back and shoulders, but when his bold gaze met hers, a heated memory instantly assaulted her—of Ranulf taking her last night, of his hips thrusting hard and rhythmically as he ground against her. From the scorching look he gave her, she could tell he was recalling that same moment.

Histhoughts were frequently occupied in that manner, she was certain. When Ariane tried to draw him out in conversation, Ranulf avoided giving direct answers and somehow managed to turn the subject, most often distracting her with pure carnal desire. His remoteness shattered then,

to their mutual satisfaction.

And then there were the times he deliberately tried to provoke her into losing her temper. She suspected he took pleasure in testing the limit of her control, for then he could use his formidable powers of persuasion to subdue her. He had merely to touch her and her body turned to flame. His caresses left her moaning and pleading with him to take her.

It frightened Ariane, how powerless she had become, to know she had been reduced to a helpless, wanton creature, craving naught but the touch of her lord. Her hunger frightened her. This need to be with him was a strange and constant ache within her. Her own vulnerability disturbed her almost as much as Ranulf’s determined aloofness. She had vowed to bring him to his knees; but she was no closer to that goal now than she had ever been. And lamentably, she had few defenses against his relentless assault on her own heart; she could summon but a feeble resistance.

Even so, even though she had only her intuition to rely upon, her instincts warned her not to refuse whatever Ranulf wanted of her.

What he wanted washer, in his bed, willing and eager. The one time he gave her respite was during her monthly flux, which came the following week.

His lust was insatiable, it seemed; his powers of endurance remarkable. Ariane found it nearly impossible to turn his mind to other pastimes. And unless she could manage to distract him, she knew she had no hope of controlling her own wantonness. In desperation one evening, she brought out her father’s intricately carved chess pieces and polished wooden board.