“Just so you know, you aren’t the only one taking a huge chance here, baby,” he whispered to her and held her close. He ran his palm along her back, coming lower and lower but not caressing her ass, and the thought that she wanted to feel his hand there shocked her.
“I’m not a trusting man. Especially not with women. I’ve learned to put a wall up over my heart, my emotions. It isn’t going to come down easy.” He pulled back and she stared up into his eyes.
“We can help each other pull down those walls we have up. That’s all I’m saying.” He added a moment later. He went to pull back and she gripped his hips. He stopped and stared down into her eyes, squinting.
“I’m trying, Pierce. I want to let down my guard, but it’s so hard.” He reached up and stroked her cheek and jaw.
“My brothers say we need to take this chance.” He stared into her eyes and stroked her cheek, holding her gaze so intensely she gulped.
“That I need to take a chance on you. I don’t know what’s going to come of this. I don’t. But I know how I feel when you’re near. When I get here early to work, I wonder when you’ll arrive. At night while I’m in bed, I think of you,” he told her and she lowered her eyes and felt her cheeks warm, uncertainty filling her heart.
“I know that probably scares you. It will take time but we aren’t going anywhere, Vye. Just know that.” He stared at her lips and this time when he cautiously lowered, she didn’t pull away. Instead, she pulled him closer, and things got hot and heavy fast.
* * * *
The sight of her body, that backside in the skirt she wore today and the dip in her blouse that revealed all cleavage, did something to Pierce. Then her scent attacked his senses, and he wanted more. He wanted closer. Now here he was kissing her tenderly, yet wanting to do more exploring. She moaned into his mouth and he slid his hand along her ass and used the other one to cup her breast. She pressed her tongue deeper into his mouth in response. They were moaning. He was groping her, and then Lou walked into the room.
Pierce pulled her back and away from the printer and then felt her tighten up as Lou joined them. Pierce pulled from her mouth and she gasped for breath as he suckled against her neck and her cleavage. Lou cupped her cheek.
“Goddamn, baby, you look gorgeous,” he said and pressed his mouth to hers. Pierce squeezed her breasts harder and she gasped, pulled from Lou’s mouth, and covered her chest with her hand.
“Are you okay? Did I hurt you?” he asked her.
“I…um…oh, God, what am I doing?” she asked and pulled away and fixed her top, but kept her arms crossed over herself.
“Sweetie, it’s okay. I get it. That was my fault completely. Are you okay?” Pierce asked.
She worried her bottom lip and looked at Pierce and Lou.
“We shouldn’t have—”
Lou and Pierce shook their heads.
“Don’t,” they both said, and apparently the tone of their voices and that intimidation she felt caused her to start walking back and away from them.
“Jesus, baby, don’t look at us like that. We aren’t him. We would never hurt you,” Lou said and slowly walked toward her.
She shook her head.
“I need to finish up and then head home. Did you need anything else done in the office today?” she asked and Pierce shook his head.
“I’ll fix the printer, but know this, Evonna. We want you in our lives, and we’re here for you no matter what. You’ll get over the fears you have by letting us in,” Pierce told her firmly and then walked toward the printer and started to fix it.
Vye walked out of the room.
* * * *
Vye fed Benny, watching him suckle against her breast. Her emotions were all over the place, and especially after she went online and read about lower arousal and sex drive after birth and while breastfeeding. As she read more and more articles, because she worried about what was right for Benny and for herself, she realized, even though she was done healing and could be intimate if she wanted to, that it was common for a woman’s sex drive to be absent. She was fine with that. She didn’t have a husband, and she wasn’t interested in being intimate with anyone. But then how was it she was so aroused when Pierce and Lou had kissed her today?
How could she want to feel more of their touches, their caresses, when her focus should be on Benny and on healing emotionally?
She felt regretful, unattractive, and simply not sexy because she’d just had a baby a little more than two months ago, but here she was being pursued by multiple men. Did she really want or need a man or men in her life? For what? To make her feel like her life could only be complete and a success with a man in it? Her head was pounding. She liked all five McCann brothers for many reasons. Was it fate that they were the ones to rescue her and deliver Benny that night? She didn’t know and she didn’t much want to believe in fate or that it would make her go through pain, abuse, and fear like she had in order to get here to Salvation.
She made her own fate, by the decisions she made and by the route she chose. Salvation was her second chance at a better life for her and Benny and she couldn’t screw that up. It didn’t matter that apparently the McCann brothers’ kisses, caresses, even small, comforting touches seemed to put her in that other category of feeling sensual so soon after birth, unlike most mothers. Maybe that article was trash. She needed to be smart here. Of course she found the five men to be sexy, mysterious, and a totally intimidating turn on. They were gorgeous, mysterious, and women had fantasies about men like them. Hell, they could get any woman they wanted. They’d probably had so many lovers, considering their ages. Why would they want some twenty-three-year-old woman who’d gotten beat up and knocked up by her abusive ex-boyfriend? An ex-boyfriend who more than likely was trying to find Vye anyway? That brought more tears to her eyes and a bit of anxiety.
She looked down and stroked Benny’s cheek. He was finished and sleeping as she eased her breast from his mouth and adjusted her top. She looked down as he slept and then looked at the deep cleavage of her breasts. She thought about Pierce’s touch as he kissed her. Then as Lou kissed her and Pierce roughly massaged her breast, causing some milk to leak out. It’d shocked her. Embarrassed her. Thank God he hadn’t noticed.
How could she let them kiss her and touch her like that when she was a mommy and had no right engaging in anything that could lead to more trouble for her? After all, they were some sort of elite soldiers. Men who had capabilities that apparently made men come to them for training and for advice. The men were impressed with the McCann brothers and the training facility was getting busier and busier. She hadn’t even snuck by one of the training rooms to see them instruct. The thought of what they looked like in action, teaching hand-to-hand combat, brought on that tingling feeling in her core. She would think her body, her pussy would want to guard itself from future penetration and abuse. Not with those five men. No, it seemed even though Vye was lactating and cradling a six-week-old in her arms, her body had a mind of its own.