Those three words are critical for someone like Sean.
He’s got a hard outer shell and soft insides that I know
no one really sees.
So when he says those three words…
I know with everything in me…
My heart…
My mind…
My soul…
That he truly and genuinely means them.
Chapter 3
~Sean~
Night falls and I’m in a daze.
The streets are slick and wet and my eyes are glued to them, watching as a combination of the moonlight and the glow from the street lamps highlight the river of black in certain spots.
There’s a torrential downpour of thoughts raining down inside of my head. I wish the sun would come up and dry them out. There’s no chance of bright and sunny days ahead for me anytime soon. I keep thinking of Hadlee.
My next fight.
My loyalty to Connie and the Braithreachas.
And why the hell Tee has been MIA lately.
More than anything I’m pissed off. This is not unusual for me. I know. I know. Maintain your temper, Seany. Maintain your temper.
I’m not supposed to be waiting of this damn corner.
There’s a buzzing in my ears.
A raw ache in my throat.
Gripping the metal pole in front of me, I feel the cold bleed through my skin, sending shivers of uncertainty down my spine.
Even though it’s only been about an hour, two tops, it feels like I’ve been standing on this corner for an eternity.
I imagine that’s exactly what it’s supposed to feel like when you have the weight of the world on your shoulders and a massive web of thoughts occupying your mind. It’s been affecting me so much lately that I’ve been having a hard time concentrating.
I’ve got a girlfriend at home, in my bed, that I feel like I need to protect.
A father-figure/boss that I’m beginning to hate more than love.
Pressure blossoms inside my chest, expanding every time I inhale. It’s like a message…
A warning.
My body is telling me things that I don’t want to recognize. Things that I don’t want to listen to or understand even though I know that it’s the right thing to do. I’ve got to start making some choices.
That I have to start questioning make actions, my decisions, and learn to make better ones.