You Were Never Honest (Never 2)

I don’t know who I’m trying to convince, him or me. He starts to pull my hem down, but for some reason I stop him. I’m not thinking straight but I have to ask. “What happened on the night of my birthday?”

“We got close to the point of no return, but nothing happened other than us kissing. I pulled back and said it wouldn’t happen like that between us.” He doesn’t break our eye contact and I can see the sincerity and the fire burning within.

“You’re a good guy Noah, the best in my opinion. Thank you for putting a stop to it, I’m hoping I didn’t humiliate myself too much,” I say quietly as we remain staring into one another’s eyes. His hand still on my hem and mine still preventing him from pulling it down.

“You did nothing of the sort and believe me even though I’m a good guy even I struggled to remember why we shouldn’t. But I said to you that I want nothing and no one between us when it does happen. Plus having you forget it even happened would bruise even my ego,” he says with a laugh, but I know he’s only saying that to try and lighten the moment.

“There’s nothing between us now,” I can’t believe I just said that.

He has this beautiful smile on his face but I can already tell he’s going to say no, he has his no face in place.

“Leighbear, you have rotten timing. We can’t do this, not after what that arsehole did to you. He’s between us right now, we don’t need a reason to be together other than it being something we both want in that moment.” Thick and torn, that’s how he sounds, I want him to be sure about this, but I also want to feel something... good, something right.

“I just want to feel good and have something about today that I can look back on and smile. I know it’s not the best reason but there’s no one else I want to do this with, not for my… first time.” The last part comes out quietly and I’m filled with uncertainty after revealing this to him.

“You honour me my love, but not now. Damn it Henleigh I don’t think I’m as good as you believe I am,” he says and I don’t understand why until his mouth is colliding with mine and I sink back into the mattress.

Oh no, he is very good. And man do I mean good! His hands are on my waist and his fingers are squeezing and massaging me, his fingers feel good. I wonder how good they really are.

“Henleigh, I can make you feel good if that’s what you really want. But I meant what I said, when we lose it together it’ll be in the perfect moment.” His hand glides across my bare skin on my waist and my breath hitches. A revelation like this deserves to be savoured but his touch his leaving my brain incapable of a clear, concise thought. I need to try though, he deserves for me to at least consider his words.

Oh my gawd, he’s a virgin! This feels even more right now, he’s too damn perfect.

“Yes that is what I want, I can’t even tell you how much I want it,” yes I sound desperate and I can’t bring myself to care right now.

His mouth is back on mine and his fingers are carrying the top further up, as his fingers dance over my ribs. It tick

les but I’m so highly strung it barely registers, his fingers move higher until they skim across the bottom of my breasts. Oh damn.

He’s pulling back and I follow him up, raising my arms as he pulls the top off me and throws it somewhere across the room. I’m not even hesitating to do the same to him as his top soon joins mine.

He puts his hands on my shoulders and gently pushes me back down and my hands skim across the planes of his chest and across his stomach. He’s smiling down at me but he stops my hands from wandering any further down.

“My love, I can only be a good guy if you don’t do that, you make it impossible to think when you’re touching me. What do you think will happen if you go where you were planning?” I’m aflame with desire and I can tell he is too, but I respect his decision. My Noah bear, so sweet and kind.

I wink at him which makes him laugh just before he ducks his head and closes his mouth over one of my nipples, my back is arching off the bed as he strokes my other one.

“Noah,” I moan out and he pulls away before kissing down my stomach.

“Are you sure?” he asks and I nod at him as his fingers slide my knickers down.

Oh my, what’s he going to do now?

“I want to taste you, but not this time,” he says as he lies down next to me and slides his hand back down my stomach.

He slides a finger between my folds and runs it across my nub, a gasp slips from my mouth and I’m biting down on my bottom lip.

He’s rubbing his finger back and forth, stroking and pulling gently before he moves down further. He looks at me one last time as he lays his finger just above my opening, I’m nodding so damn fast I probably look like the nodding dog. Ooh yes. Winston eat your heart out.

He slides inside me and I’m trying so hard not to moan too loudly, this is for us no one else. His mouth closes around my nipple as his finger moves back and forth. He does something that makes it feel so much more intense and my toes are curling as my back arches off the bed, pushing my breast further into his mouth.

He slides another finger inside and I can’t take anymore, my walls are tightening around him and he releases my nipple and replaces it with my mouth. Swallowing my scream as I experience the first orgasm I’ve ever had not given by, well me.

He strokes his hand down my face as my shudders relent and his kisses grow more tender. He pulls back slowly and lies down on his back pulling my back flush against him until he’s spooning me.

His head is nuzzling my neck and I’m threading my fingers through his hair, this is my favourite place in the world, right here in his arms.

“Do you feel better?” he asks, and it’s like he can’t stop kissing me, I love it.