You Were Never Honest (Never 2)

“I explained the events that led up to the worst decision of my life, hitting her and leaving her behind. Like I said to her, it wasn’t an excuse I just wanted her to know that I hadn’t set out to hurt or destroy anyone that night.” I find it harder to look at him than I did Rebecca, he feels more dangerous somehow. It doesn’t help that my voice is wavering and giving away how affected I am by seeing her.

“I see.” He sounds like he doesn’t care but his face is all wrong, his mouth is pressed into a thin, tight line. His eyes a little wider than normal and his hand keeps clenching and unclenching. I think he wants to know what I said to her.

“Would you like to know H, you’ve already sentenced me and I don’t expect this to change that but would you like to know what happened,” I don’t know why I’m offering this and sweat is rolling down my spine as my nerves rear their ugly head. But I’m holding my hand out to him and he takes it.

I think his decision is as surprising to him as it is to me, we walk around the grounds near to the stables and I tell him everything that I said to Rebecca. He doesn’t let go of my hand and I don’t try to pull away, I think we’ll always call each other enemies. I’m just not sure I agree with it anymore.

It doesn’t take long for March to hurry around, it's still cold outside but running keeps me wa

rm. Amias is still sitting with Octavia and apparently, she’s all over him, I can’t say for sure as I don’t eat in the canteen anymore.

I told Ivy that I knew about her and Harrison and she’s trying to make it up to me, but I can’t be around her right now. I have revenge to enact and I need people I can trust in my corner, not someone who only fills me with doubts. I’ve also somehow ended up tutoring Harrison for his English, Hutchinson said it was the only thing he hadn’t caught up on. She seems to think I’m a miracle worker and the only person who can get him to pass.

I never spent Valentine’s Day with anyone, I refuse to celebrate a day that was only created to give the stores more money. If I want to show someone I love them, I’ll do it when I choose, not just because it’s dictated by society. I guess I’m still feeling a little sore due to Amias, but I made it this way who else can I blame.

“Earth to baby girl, are you sure you want to do this? It doesn’t really seem like the kind of thing you’d be into,” she says, looking at the plan I made to get back at Chelsea. First, I’ll take Finley, then her looks and lastly her reputation.

“Oh, I’m sure. Don’t worry Roxie, it’s going to be fun,” I say, with a vicious smile on my lips, oh yes I’m going to enjoy this.

We leave my room and she keeps watch as I duck inside Chelsea’s, this is going to be fun. The first thing I do is replace her soap for one that will stain her skin a tango orange. Her hair dye will turn her hair grey and that’s just for shits and giggles, I came here to plant evidence and that’s exactly what I’m going to do. Today is the only time I will make an exception, I’ll be eating my lunch in the canteen.

Now that it’s all set up, I text Mattias to see if he’s got what I asked for, and then I put one last thing in place. If it works not only, will she be grey, she may even have to shave it all off. Glue is such a horrible thing to get out of your hair, especially one that expands and sets once water gets onto it. I empty all of her other bottles of shampoo to ensure that she will have to wash her hair in this one.

I leave her room with a wicked smile on my face and as we round the corner I come face to face with Amias, he stops dead and just stands there staring at me.

“Fuck off Casanova, go back to that little slut you have draped over you every lunch time” Roxie says it right before she kicks him in the shin, shocking us both.

“Roxie, behave,” I ground out, not wanting to bring any unwanted attention our way.

“Hi little cub,” he says, but the nickname leaves me feeling hollow instead of the warmth it used to stir in me.

“You don’t get to call me that anymore, it’s not like we’re going to stay friends.” It’s harsh and unforgiving and telling him more than I wanted. Can he see my pain and the green-eyed monster rolling beneath my skin? Does he care?

“You were the one who screwed me and tried to sneak out the next morning,” he says, with this lazy air about him but his eyes reveal pain and I try to kid myself into seeing love, but he doesn’t, not really.

“I know and that was wrong, I never should have let it get that far. It made you change your mind though didn’t it, never clearly ended quickly for you,” I reply and I push past him and chills run through me as he grips hold of my now healed wrist.

“Don’t touch me, I wouldn’t want to catch whatever Octavia has,” I bite out, letting my pain fuel my words before I grab Roxie and leave. I never regretted going bare with him, but I’m starting to now.

I’m just glad that I’m not the sort of girl who believes that guys should take care of the protection, I’ve still learnt my lesson though. He moved on quicker than it takes me to count to a hundred, I’m never letting myself be sucked in by a bad boy exterior again

“Get over here beautiful, I’ve missed you,” Eli shouts across the canteen and I can’t fight the laugh.

I can see Amias out of the corner of my eye and he does not look happy, that makes me laugh even harder.

“You saw me this morning,” I say with a shake of my head as he drags my bottom lip into his mouth, drawing out a low moan.

“Save it for the bedroom you two,” Bella says with a blush and I’m ecstatic to see that Mattias has now joined our table.

“Do we have to,” he pouts, and I slap him gently on the arm.

“Yes, please do,” comes from Noah as he wraps his arms around me, and I sink into them willingly.

“Oh, look who it is, where have your wheels gone? Do you need me to push you around,” shouts Xavier and I look around to see Harrison freeze on the spot and his look reminds me why I was scared of him.

“Careful Drew, he might start shaking, wouldn’t want him to hit his head again now would we,” comes from Octavia as she leaves Amias’ table to stand beside her boyfriend. I do not understand their relationship.

“That’s cruel,” Roxie says looking horrified and we watch as Ivy walks over to stand beside him.