You Were Never Honest (Never 2)

“It’s okay Harrison, you can come in,” I say as I stand up and start bouncing on my feet.

Elijah and Amias are soon on their feet and I’m in front of them before I can even think it through.

“What is he doing here?” Elijah asks, as he trembles with his rage. His knuckles are turning white from how hard he’s clenching them.

“I was invited,” he replies, as his face sets into a scowl but it softens slightly as he looks at me.

“I asked him to come so sit your arses down or get out,” I say as I put my hands on my hips and narrow my eyes at the two guys causing trouble right now.

“He shouldn’t be here after what he did to you, how can you be okay with this?” Amias asks, his tone is menacing and promises pain to whoever crosses him.

“She already knew,” Harrison says with a smirk that turns to a shark-like smile as all three of my guys look on in shock.

Amias turns his hateful stare on me, his nostrils are flaring as he comes to step closer but instead, moves away. “You fucking hypocrite, you ended it with me for keeping apparent secrets. How are you any better, you sanctimonious…”

“Don’t even think about finishing that sentence,” Harrison says as he steps closer to Amias and looks down on him.

“You really want to stop me shaky, I put you in a coma once, I can do it again. I guarantee I won’t feel bad about it this time.”

“Enough!” I scream, running in between them and putting a hand on each of their chests.

Amias scoffs as he steps back but Harrison stands his ground, and I can’t help but notice how hard he feels beneath my hand.

“I think you should let go now Leighbear,” Noah says, and he sounds worried, guess I should listen to him.

“Go sit down H, I have something I need to say and I’d rather it didn’t end up in a fight,” I say softly, begging him with my eyes not to argue.

“Fine, but I could still kick his arse,” he replies gruffly which earns him another scoff and the two-finger salute.

“You guys don’t need to be angry with him, and he didn’t release this crap he tried to stop it. When I found out it shocked me, but I couldn’t be angry with him, not when his reasons for doing it were selfless. If I can move on from it, why can’t you?” I’m not shouting, even though this is an uncomfortable situation, I need to stay calm.

“He’s lying to you, clearly he released it early to throw you off. Don’t you find it funny that it’s announced on the day you planned to tell us, who else but us knew that? Also, while we’re on it, if he didn’t do it then why did he change his mind? Maybe he’s hoping to be your next love interest,” Amias is angry I get that, but his words hurt.

I sit down on the sofa and Declan pats me on the shoulder while Roxie sends death glares at the loose cannon in the room.

“I changed my mind because I realised I was wrong about her, she did a lot for me back in October and she sought out my sister and tried to make things right. Why would she do that if she was the selfish bitch, I thought she was? Besides, if I was going to release it, why wouldn’t I release the stuff I had on you?” His face looks relaxed, but his right eye is twitching and his tone, sounds almost smug.

“You shut your mouth,” Amias shouts as he picks up my bedside lamp and chucks it at his head.

Harrison ducks just in time and it smashes into the wall, shards flying everywhere. I’m just sitting here with my mouth hanging open and my eyes can’t possibly get any wider.

“What are your secrets Amias? You got pretty angry with Henleigh when you found out that she already knew who I was, so clearly you’re hiding something.”

Harrison is enjoying this too much, and it’s raising questions with regard to his character, not that it’s surprising.

“You are so full of shit, leave him alone. This doesn’t concern you,” Elijah says and my heart breaks just a little more.

My shoulders are slouching under the weight of his unknown confession, tears are filling my eyes and my heart is cracking deeper and harder than before.

“Am I the only one who doesn’t know or at least, that you knew of?” I ask and my voice is cold, monotone. I can’t put any emotion into it. It hurts too much, and I need to be numb right now.

“It’s not like that little cub, it isn’t as bad as it sounds,” he says, his voice softening and his eyes so devoid of darkness it’s like looking into a stranger’s, but then again isn’t that exactly what he is?

“Don’t call me that,” anger seeps in before I lock it back up and turn my eyes onto him, I don’t know what he’s seeing but he flinches when his lock onto mine.

“Not that bad hey, kissing me, making me fall for you and all because you were ordered to. Oh yeah, how could it possibly get any better?” I hate the tears in my voice, but I won’t hide my emotions this time, I’ll wear them like they’re my armour and this time he won’t pierce it.

Declan lays his hands on my shoulders and squeezes gently; it’s getting harder and harder to keep my feelings locked away. I think it’ll only take one more blow to destroy my emotionless facade once and for all.