Eternal

I hurried off into the bathroom for a boiling hot shower and some time to clear my head, with not even a backwards glance in her direction.

I heard the bedroom door open and close and gathered that she had gone to find Kat to retrieve her clothes. I sighed in relief knowing that I wouldn’t have to see her when I finally re-emerged.

Z

Unya

I found Kat in the kitchen without a single trace of a party occurring here the night before, she must have had some serious tidying skills to have managed that.

“Hey, that dress looked awesome on you last night, please tell me you had fun.” She said this with her eyes shining, but they were also red raw and had the appearance of tears.

“What’s wrong, did something happen?” I asked, hoping that I had sounded sympathetic and not bored. What can I say, faking your emotions constantly, is hard work even I screw up sometimes.

“You may recall that Lawson mentioned a Marcus last night, well we’ve been seeing each other on and off for a while. It’s been great it really has, but last night we decided to make it officially off for good this time, we had the best goodbye you could ever hope for, but it doesn’t stop it from hurting.”

“Why end it then, clearly you’re crazy for this guy, even if Lawson isn’t,” I replied, trying to make sense of it all.

“Oh, don’t mind Lawson, he was just trying to look out for me. The minute he found out about Marcus he warned me not to get too attached, but as usual I ignored his warnings. And to answer your question, our feelings really are irrelevant in this matter. I’m away a lot and distance is a hard foe to conquer, besides we’re two completely different breeds, it could never work.”

I didn’t really understand what she meant by different breeds, but I decided not to question her on it anymore, it was obviously difficult for her to talk about.

She informed me that my clothes were sitting in her bathroom waiting for me and I practically flew up those stairs to get them.

When I came back down, I heard the distinct sound of Lawson’s bike revving, before he took off. I found Kat standing by the door with her mouth hanging open before she turned to me.

“Don’t take it personally, it was probably a lot for him to share his bed with someone again.”

“What, you mean after Lilith?” I inquired, not sure why she deemed it necessary to explain his actions to me.

“He told you about that little Empusa, I am shocked but no I do not mean her, she is of no relevance to anyone. It was only ever about sex with her, I think he told me he was bored of her after only one night. He only kept it going so no one else would make a move on him.”

“Then what’s the big significance of me sleeping in his bed, cause we most certainly did not have sex.”

Kat smiled a full tooth beaming smile at me before she shook her head.

“Of course you two didn’t, look out of respect to Lawson I cannot tell you his story. But I will tell you that he had his heart ripped out a long time ago, it’s the most tragic love story I have ever been told and I don’t think he will ever truly get over it. I only tell you this so that you won’t get too invested in him, I love the guy but you would do better to steer clear of him.”

After her warning, the air seemed to take on a more awkward and even sadder feel, but she was kind enough to make me some breakfast before she drove me to my car.

I kept trying to get her to tell me her age, but each time she would just laugh it off and bat her hand at me. She looked about 21 at least, but she spoke as though she had been around a lot longer, but acted with the air of an exuberant teenager. It was all rather mind boggling to say the least.

She pulled me in for a quick hug before she handed me my phone and drove off. I couldn’t believe that I hadn’t even thought to check it once since I got to hers. I swiftly turned it on and skimmed through all the shitty messages that Jackie had sent me and then slowly sat down on the bonnet of my car when I read the most recent message from Addy.

I quickly hopped in and drove to her house, wondering if it had been some kind of sick joke, but I knew she would never do something like that. This meant only one thing, while I had been out drinking and dancing with Lawson, Darren had killed himself.

I pulled up outside hers ten minutes later and she engulfed me in a hug, I knew that I didn’t have to pretend to be sad with her, but once I spotted her sister, I made the tears start to fall.

Addy had stared at me in utter confusion until she realised that my tears were for Hannah’s benefit and I was still nothing more than an emotionless robot.

“Do you know how it happened?” I asked making my voice break half way through.

“It’s been all over the news, they are saying that he jumped off of Hooken Cliff. He didn’t even leave a note, I can’t even imagine what his parents must be going through,” Stated Hannah, as she awkwardly patted me on the back.

“I’m surprised you hadn’t heard; didn’t his parent’s even try to contact you?” asked Addy as she led me into the house and over to the couch.

“No, I haven’t had a single call from them, I didn’t even know until I got your message,” I replied while keeping my head down so that Hannah wouldn’t notice that my tears had already dried up. Luckily, she left for work soon after and Addy was left feeling guilty as she had to hea

d off for college. She offered to blow it off for the day, but I refused to let her do that, it didn’t help that my last words to Darren kept playing through my mind and how he had done exactly what I told him too. It was at that moment that I decided that I had a person to find.