This is why I’m falling for him, I tell myself. Because he’s unique, he’s special, he’s just Carter.
“Oh fuck,” I cry out, my whole body lighting up with lust. It’s like Christmas lights are attached to all of my veins, running through my body and they are all switched on at once. “Carter, that’s…”
He strips the breath from my lungs. I’m literally breathless. I can’t speak, I can’t think, I’m suffocating in this lack of air, and I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else in the world. Right now, this man is everything to me.
Yet I need more. That’s the problem with Carter, I always want more with him.
I roll him onto his back and push myself back in to a sitting position so I can control the thrusts. I pick the perfect angle and pace for me, selfishly chasing an orgasm of my own. Of course I want Carter to enjoy himself as well, but I can’t help focusing on me for just a moment. I’m buzzing, sizzling, tipping closer and closer…
And then I fall. I scream out at a top note, fully savoring every moment of the experience. It’s intense and phenomenal, it shatters and racks through me, swallowing every part of me whole. I buck and crumble, I thrash and fall apart, falling against Carter hard. He holds me tight, kissing me intensely, loving me with every part of himself. I love this, it sends me off on a romantic notion, so in the post orgasmic bliss I dream only of him and me. I think about the distant future when all of this is over and we can just be us.
I could get hurt here, I think idly as we crash together in the bed. I could end up with my heart broken.
But I really don’t think that’s the case. I don’t think that Carter will hurt me. I think we’re meant to be…
29
Carter
“Where is Raelyn?” Gary asks me as soon as I walk through the door. “Is she not back today?”
“Why would I know?” I do my best to blag it, but all Gary needs to do is cock his disbelieving eyebrow at me for me to know that he’s seen right through me. “Okay, fine. She isn’t going to be here today.”
“Is she okay? She wasn’t herself yesterday at all and we’re all worried.”
“She isn’t well. She’ll be back when she’s better. For the time being, we can all hold things together, can’t we?” Gary nods, but he still looks unsure. “You’ll tell Leon to hold it together, won’t you?”
I feel bad not giving him more to go off of, but this is all I can share. There’s no way I can tell him the truth. He’ll end up in this shit, just like I am. I don’t want to end up dragging anyone else into it.
“Yeah sure. Leon and I have everything sorted. There isn’t anything to worry about.”
“Good, good. Well, I’m going to be catching up on some paper work in my office, so come get me if you need me.”
“We won’t disturb you unless we need to… but I don’t think we’ll need to, so I wouldn’t worry.”
I smile at him gratefully. Thank goodness he can see what I need today. “I appreciate it, Gary.”
He walks off, thankfully trusting me enough to leave it there, and I head straight into my office. Leaving Raelyn at home today was the right thing to do. She couldn’t be here today, but I don’t know how I’m going to get through the day myself. I have been checking my cell phone all morning long to see if I have anything from Lee, be so far nothing yet. He’s taking a long time, but I guess I need to be patient.
I turn my computer on and tap my fingers anxiously on the desk while I wait for it to come to life. As soon as it does, I run through my emails. Quite a lot have piled up since I’ve been distracted, so there’s a lot to keep me occupied. That’s good really, I need something to keep me occupied so I don’t end up insane.
Ring, ring… Ring, ring…
I actually end up so distracted that I almost ignore my phone to focus on work. It’s only when I recall that Lee is calling me, I jump up and grab it to answer, panic tearing through me. And it’s him!
“Lee,” I gasp excitedly in to the handset. “It’s you!”
“Yes, it is. I wanted to make sure I had everything before coming to you.”
“Oh, of course, I know, I trust you. I’ve only been driving myself a bit insane while waiting.”
“I can imagine. But I have what you need now. I have a lot of information for you.”
“Such as what?” I rake my fingers anxiously through my hair. “Is it part of the organized crime groups?”
“That’s how it looked on the outside, yes. And I was almost prepared to believe as such, but something didn’t quite sit right so I kept on digging. What I discovered is that it’s more of a gang crime.”
“Gang? I didn’t realize that we had a gang issue… is this separate from the others?”